Death seeks me please...

Monday, March 27, 2006

27th march: ouch.. it hurts.. it comes and goes but nobody knows.. please leave me alone.. it hurts.. ouch..

today is the first day of attachment. we had our orientation. been sitting down for the past 8 hours, and listening to people, one after another, talking. dun think will like the place.. *sigh* ouch.. it hurts again..

-ah_xun faced death at 6:18 PM

Friday, March 24, 2006

24th march: i'm sick. sick in the heart, sick in my body.. so tired.. energy drained off. anyway, just to report tat my exam is over, and er.. next monday starts attachment for 6 weeks. den will be graduating after tat.

been living for nearly twenty years already.. life.. till now still can't figure out if it's sux, or rulz.. suddenly felt like sighing.. so.. *sigh~*

-ah_xun faced death at 10:49 PM

Monday, March 20, 2006

20th march: sigh.. attachment posting is finally out.. sigh.. i rather it's not out.. going to be in some ward which i dun even choose, nor do i know wat discipline is it.. sigh.. dun like it.. somehow.. hate it.. bro told me, sometimes it's better to work with people you dunno, cos can learn new things from them. hopefully everything turn on well.......... sigh.........

-ah_xun faced death at 2:59 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

10th march: i prayed again! today went school with kavi and jolyn. very fun!! hahahaha~ thank you, Father for giving me a chance for seeing them before the last day in school. along the way, jolyn and kavi kept saying tat it's the last time tat we can go to school together, it's the last itme we can enjoy the views on our way to school.. blah~ blah~ sounds sad.. but i dun really feel anything apart from.. able to go to school with them, sharing the joy, gossips, saddness, stress, junks and lameness.. *sigh* =( i'll miss you both. trust me >_^V

yesterday played kingdom hearts till pretty late. i restarted the game two times to check some combination of the questions. saw two different guides, both say different things. lolz~ so.. with doubts, i restart to see who's rite. guess wat? ... ... both are rite!! LOLZ!! waste my time.. hahhaha~ >=D but good la.. at least my heart felt a little more at ease.

bro bought dvd cleaner at last. but a problem arise. how long must i let it spin? i got a rough idea, but not too sure. who knows the answer? tell me ok? thank you! ^^ saw him played resident evil 4 last night. i got shocked by the same corpse around three times! LOLZ! so scary sia!! the sound effects was great, graphics too!! think most of the guys like to play tat ba. definately not my cup of tea.. but i enjoyed watching my bro play. i enjoy watching him plays games, cos tat's the only time i can help him. when he lost his way, i can guide him. when he forgot to do something, i can tell him. bro grows up le. no longer my dear bro, whose head is bigger than his body [mind you.. he got no down syndrome. tat was when he's three plus four] =) i really loves him alot, till now.

you know.. when guys grow up, they tend to change into someone tat you really dun know. bro is smarter than me, thus there's nothing much tat i can teach him. cos of this, for one period of time, we got nothing much to say to each other. but now, we talk like there's no tomorrow. we talked about games, about family issues, even government issues now! lolz~ =) very happy tat he will share a little bit of his problems to me. though nothing much i can do, i gives hima listening ear. tat's betta than nothing i feel =)

may God continue to bless my bro in every ways. Amen.

-ah_xun faced death at 9:09 AM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

8th march: another day passed. so fast.. it's wednesday, my third last day in school [not counting the examination]. soon, i'll have to say 'good-bye' to my polytechnic life. time, do fly..

anyway, yesterday went out with my sis. i bought a pencil case for my bro. twenty bucks if i rounded it up! so ex. dunno why recently, things sell so ex de. but neva mind.. since i promised him tat i'll buy him one. oh ya.. yesterday din managed to touch my PS two. bro occupied it for the whole day.. playing his resident evil four. wa!! got shocked so many times, especially when he was ambushed in the village. the sound effects are great! lolz~ i find it betta than final fantasy. hahahahah~ =) pretty scary, think it's not situable for faint-hearted.. like me. lolz~ >_^

then like usual, my head spinned with every turn he moved. same as kingdom hearts, felt dizzy after awhile. lolz~ cannot play games with no fixed camera le.. wa!! practically all 3-D rpg cannot play sia!! *sigh* =3

very long time neva draw le [when i meant draw, it's equal to sitting on and drawing on a piece of plain paper. there's a need to define it, cos i drew everyday on my lecture notes.. lolz~ =P]. think my drawing deproved. cousin arthur asked me to draw him a picture and i took like 30 min to draw a nice one [tore off two pieces before the final piece]. den my bro asked me to add 'death shall befall on thou who touch it'. arthur likes it, and so do his bro, aaron. so i wrote them down.. lolz~ but my writing a little too big, cos in the end, no space to write the last three words. so in the end, i only wrote, 'death shall befall on thou.' LOLZ! so scary sia!

here comes the problem, 'thou'.. = 'you' or is it 'i'? when i brought tat question up, the older cousin threw the drawing to arthur and said, 'nah, i dun wan le.' lolz!! hahahahhahaha~ so funny!! at first they snatching like crazy, den suddenly he threw to him.. hahah~ cute la. lolz~ >=D

anyway, today felt quite happy too. cos prayed to God again =) pretty glad tat He still wan me. now quite tired.. maybe cos till now, i only drank a glass of milk. heh heh heh.. (x _ x)V

-ah_xun faced death at 10:00 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

7th march: i brought key to school today. everyone loves him.. hahahaha~ but shu says i'm a pervert when i told her tat key's a guy. still dun really understand why she called me tat.. anyway, i thought tat she's more pervertic when she flipped him around and looked at his butt.. lolz~ betta dun let her see this.. she might chop me or flood me with her 'pi ah ni..' lolz~ =P

'anyway, nobody know who i am.' she said tat after she read this. hahahaha~ >_^ and guess wat? she said 'pi ah~!!' LOLZ!! >=D

today quite fun. had 2 tutorials so far. both of them are presentations by my classmates. not bad la.. just a little sianz for both groups. no offense. oh ya!! i dun know tat suikoden v is out! lolz!! this time round, the main character is ger. *sigh~ * cos of this, i dun feel like buying it. hahahaha~ yea.. call me a sexist. lolz~

i completed the main quest for tales of legendia le!! 'hip hip hurray!' hahahaha~ only left the character quests to do and the problem here is tat i dun feel like doing it [cos of tat whiny shirley.. sigh~ why can't she just die.. *evil laugh* =P]. actually i'm shocked tat somebody from the walkthrough likes her. i mean.. no offense, act cute and whiny gers are out-dated!! and wat's the stupid red-roses like hairband on her damn big head? and her voice.. aarrhh!! sooo~~ irritating!!

ok.. calm down.. phew =3 by the way, i bought a new game called kingdom hearts. lolz~ all the disney and square soft de characters combine forces! lolz~!! very funny sia!! hahahahahah~ well, yesterday only played for an hour, till the part where i needed to race with riku. guess the reason? ... ... lolz~ nah.. i'm not tired, not sleepy either. i got headache. the turning of the screens whenever i walked and the jumping and practicing of spinning cuts.. ahhh..~~ my head spinned with each movement. dizzy sia!! how i hope they install this fixed camera view. betta le..

think i know why today good mood le. cos i prayed again today. =) must be God's blessing on me. hahahaha~ ^^

-ah_xun faced death at 2:58 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

6th march: a lot of things happened during the past few weeks. i cut my hair till damn short, had my one week holiday, met up with my long lost friends [yea.. kinda lost cos some years neva see them le], went camping at east coast [a two days one nite stay], went for chalet to stay [another two days one nite thingy], bought a new 'wheel of time' series, bought the last book for 'rave' [stupid ending.. dun really like it..], completed suikoden iv, completing another new game [tales of legendia] soon, saw final fantasy x's ending.. blah~ blah~ blah~

the sad part is tat.. i only have a week of school now. after this will be exam, den attachment for 6 weeks, den graduate.. sigh.. =( i dun like the society.. all adults sux. SUX! sUCKS!! sigh..

dun like a lot of things all of a sudden. things tat i used to like.. now no longer like them.. possessed by something ma? preharps.. or maybe i'm just seeking attention from someone. who's tat someone? i dunno.. sigh~ to be exact, it's not sure. i dun even know who i like anymore.. old le ba..

guess wat? i am determined to die at the age of 25 if i'm not married. if i have children, den 35. if i have a happy family, den 40. friends asked me why so short. my reply.. neva change.. 'life sux'. why bother to live for so long.. i dun wan to live another day.. if not for my mother, i think i'm long gone.. gone for good.

-ah_xun faced death at 1:43 PM