Death seeks me please...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

11th january : today did nothing much. at first wanted to go donate blood de.. but cos mens, so cannot.. sigh.. feel like trying tomo.. ahaha~ =D anyway.. i really find myself as someone who like to brag sia.. recently watever things i drew, i always show them to my friends.. think some are irritated by me [cos they gave me sacarstic remarks =(] sigh sigh.. christain somemore.. =P hope i will change to be a more humble person in a few months time..

ok.. i'm not feeling good [refering to happy la..] these few days.. those who followed my entries should know ba.. sigh~ mayb cos of him.. not replying my msg-cum-sms.. so disappointed by him now.. well.. i dun wan to think of this, but i feared tat he's not the one.. sigh~!! how can i be so idiotic sia.. why i kept on suspecting God's descision for me.. =P forgive me Lord..

hope tomo will be a betta day..

-ah_xun faced death at 3:45 PM

Monday, January 10, 2005

10th january : ahaha~ i'm back again.. cos thinking tat the previous msg was rather sad.. so i write again to say tat i'm not tat sad now.. haha~ =) very funny cos my friend, jolyn, who's now sitting beside me and dun seems to have noticed tat i'm writing about her.. anyway, she came and sat beside me and made lots of weird sounds.. den the best part was tat i didn't even notice tat it's her!! haha~ i was just thinking tat the person beside me is either mad or siao.. lolz~ same meaning ah.. now den notice.. haha~ but who knows suddnely she call me.. lolz~ den i was so shocked.. haha~ =D thanks God for bringing her to me today.. ahaha~ =)

think she's undergoing lots of stress ba.. co her face like quite packed with pimples.. haah~ dun kill me when you read this hor.. lolz~ =P may God bless you!!

-ah_xun faced death at 4:47 PM

10th january : wa.. today got 5 hours break sia.. siao bo~ haha.. =) well.. i just joined a connecting stuff, something like friendster + bogspot, which was much worse than hi5.. lolz~ not to be mean.. =P in multiply [tat's the name of it la btw], you can write your own journals, give your friends a testimonial, add other contacts to your list of friends, write recipes [which i, personally, find it useless la..], put up pictures [this is the one tat attracts me.. only!! lolz~], record recent events, got calender.. blah~ still know very little of it cos i only go there update a little bit of stuff den log out liao.. hahaa~ =)

anyway.. sigh~ he didn't reply me sia!! so sad.. guess guys can't be trusted ba.. sigh sigh sigh!!! =( very sad.. hope he's ok. but still feel very sad (>T_T<) God.. please bless him ba.. thanks..

ok.. back to subject. today so cold~ maybe cos i was in the air-conditioned room for like.. the past 3 hours? hmm.. i was wondering how come my fats not keeping me warm huh.. guess they lost their function as 'fats' liao.. haha~ siao liao.. also dun know wat i saying.. maybe cos too cold.. and depressed ba.. oh ya.. i quarrelled with my sec sch classmate sia.. first time.. haha~ =P i dun know whether my fault not.. but i feel quite bad la [when i didn't see her.. haha~] when i see her, she gives me a black face.. sigh~ friend.. why can't we just forgive each other huh.. sigh..

hope everything will turn on well for me.. =P can't smile all of a sudden.. sigh.. =( oh ya.. i forgot to bring my handphone today. felt quite uneasy at first.. hmm.. mati liao.. next time if handphone is banned from school, how am i goingin to survive? =S

-ah_xun faced death at 3:20 PM

Friday, January 07, 2005

7th january : i'm suffering from cramps sia.. sigh.. think it's the second time in my life.. dunno wat's happening with my womb.. sigh~ >=( anyway, today did nothing much. just had macnuggets and a regular coke for lunch. den at the same time, i did my project, which lasted for 45 min, with my groupmates. the stupid law module.. dun know who brought it up the the director.. =P

sigh~ dun know why.. today felt very sleepy.. my eyes look sleepy too. so maloo!! =P think everyone also can tell tat i dun feel quite well today.. sigh.. hope today can go home earlier.. sigh, sigh, sigh~

-ah_xun faced death at 1:46 PM

Thursday, January 06, 2005

6th january : today it's matthew's birthday~ happy birthday matt!! may you find someone who like you and you will like back!! =) anyway, i felt so full [just eaten chicken noodle + 2 cans of soda drinks =P]!! can't believe tat i've eaten so much sia.. haha~ guess wat? my diet plan has failed, once again. lolz~ =D it neva work sia!! i got no patience and no determination de.. how to slim down at this rate? someone help me?! [seems like only God can help me to build up my determination.. hee~ kidding!! ^^]

by the way, today received another sms from him [refer to last entry].. hee~ very happy!! very long time neva receive his sms.. actually the last time i received it was 2 or 3 days ago.. haha~ =) well, i guessed if this continue like this, i might even go over to his country.. lolz~ but first, i will physco him to come over.. haha~ =D anyway, think i like more everyday.. hee~ die sia.. like kinda mad about him recently.. dun know wat qian bin will say after she read this part.. hahaha~

well, well.. forgot to describe today. today is a great day, with big sun [hope it won't rain later.. O_o], blue sky, cool breeze [alamek.. just notice the wind speed.. like kinda fast.. hmm.. think will rain ba.. hahaha~].. today also went to the suborinate court to listen to 2 hearings. school siao one le.. go there listen, den need to write report about it.. sigh~ nothing betta to do like tat.. >=S wasted 3 hours over there.. listen also dun really understood wat the witnesses said [i only undersatd wat's going on when the judge summarised wat's going on here.. haha~] think the worst part was when we wanna leave the place. 2 minutes before we left, the police stood at the door. den i heard joanne said, 'alamak, the police blocking the door! he dun wan us to leave!!' lolz~ those who heard her said this, laughed. =D haaha~ kinda funny.. hee~

ok!! stop here liao.. need to go for lecture. ending school at 3 pm today. may God bless today with a good ending~!! =D may God also bless everyone tat i've known, to enjoy their school, work and attachment!! haaha~ and bless him too, with safety, even while walking.. hee ^^ amen! =)

-ah_xun faced death at 1:34 PM

Monday, January 03, 2005

3rd january : yesterday i read the msg sent by him.. lolz~ couldn't sleep for the nite sia!! haha~ he actually said something mushy.. so unlike him.. lolz~ [cos i always thought him as someone who is very conservative de.. hee~ >=)] anyway.. nothing much happened yesterday. i played neopets for the whole day, [mirically, no one wanna snatch the computer from me.. haha~ first time!! =D], den eat quite a lot of food [mother's cooking is getting more and more oily liao.. need to educate her about healthy eating already.. hee~ kidding~ ^^].

as for today, it's the beginning of the school term. had to wake up at 7:30 am sia.. den somemore today still got rain.. the formula: sleepiness + cool weather = sleep. haha~ today end at 7:00 pm somemore!! sigh~ thinking of taking a taxi later.. hee~ >=D anyway, not a bad start for school. hope i'll enjoy today.. may God bless me!! =)

guess wat? when i told my friends tat i had a.. *cough*, they dun seems very shocked sia.. like kind of expected. hmm.. not much fun sia.. hahaha~ =D hope he's really the one for me.. God, please make him my soulmate!! lolz~ so straight forward.. i must say, Lord, please make things go on well between us.. hee~ tat's more like it. haha~ =D

may today be a safe day for those tat i knew, and for those out there, fighting for survival, Lord, please grant them the will.. not to give up! Father Lord, please have mercy on them.. please Lord..

-ah_xun faced death at 2:46 PM