Death seeks me please...

Friday, July 15, 2005

15th july: now in e plaza again.. doing some research but nothing had been found for the past 30 minutes!! ah~!!! so sianz!! anyway, just noticed tat no one visit my blog like tat.. so sad.. =(

oh ya.. my tamagotchi lives up to the 6th generation already!! hahaah~ and guess wat? i got a male at last!! heh~ =) intending to call him 'xun' or 'tear' or 'yue'. dunno which one better.. only left one day to decide on this.. hmm... >_O

school's not bad at all.got projects, got lectures, got practicals, and even tutorials. all of them are alrite, except maybe the tutorial. the teachers are quite boring.. and most of them kept repeating themselves.

anyway, yesterday, when i was going home, it started raining quite heavily. so i ended up taking a train to ang mo kio, rather than like usual, walking to the interchange. when i reached there, guess wat? ang mo kio is like, so dry lor!!! lolz~ if only i knew earlier, i should have walked there instead.. can save my 63 cents [?]. recently quite tired. even if i had enough sleep, i still felt tired. if my friend see this, she definately will say tat i old liao le. haha~ but luckily she dun even bother to come to my blog, no matter how many times i had reminded her of this.. sigh~

may God bless me with the energy for the rest of today!! =)

-ah_xun faced death at 1:23 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

12th july: went to school with jolyn today. we talked throughout the whole journey. long time neva talk to her le. glad tat she's still fine.. =)

i was thinking of my primary school friend this morning. thinking about the time we spent together, be it gossiping, joking around, singing, cooking, plain chatting, playing, hitting each other, pulling one's pony tail.. aww... so nice.. =) lolz~ i really enjoyed the time we spent together, especially when we were at the neighbourhood macdonald, where we can meet at 3pm and leave tat place at 11pm. ahaha~ =D den, the ones who stayed close to each other will walk home together [along the way, we'll still talk about the days when we were little brats.. lolz~].

anyway, when i was waiting for my bus to school, one of my primary school friend, ivy tapped my shoulder. hahaha~ den we chatted for awhile cos her bus arrived. thank God for blessing me to be able to see her. thanks Lord! ^_<

oh ya.. yesterday, i only had 4 hours of sleep. the best part, the next sleep i had was 20 hours later!! ahh!! very tired sia! but i'm a good ger. lolz~ when i reached home from school yesterday, i started doing my project. den i went out to meet my elder sis to buy her shoes. after we reached home, i did my research again. heh~ neva thought tat i can be so hardworking. haha~ ^^

-ah_xun faced death at 12:26 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

11th july: today i wore a yellow polo tee to school, of cos, with a skirt =) though i like bright colours, idun behave like one cheerful fellow. i'm usually dull and moody.. lolz~ but dunno why, i really like bright colours, especially for my shirts!! hee~

yesterday went to church. the devotion part was nice! lolz.. i like the speaker especially. she's a not very tall lady, but with big voice. she spoke, and most of the speeches touched my heart! hahaha~ thanks Father, for blessing me with a wonderful time in the church!! ^^

i just had my tutorial by the way.. and tat bernard lian.. sigh~ not to say tat he teach not good or wat, but the topic itself was boring!! so now felt a little sleepy.. =P the next class starts at 3pm.. got 2 solid hour de break le!! dunno wat to do later.. cms cannot play.. i mean.. cannot study.. sigh~

i played priston tale on saturday. very fun!! ahahah~ i made a good friend call 'princess -something-'. very nice ger.. [i think it's ger.. lolz~] ^^ with her around, i level up 3 levels!! hahaah~ and i completed my rank up quest for my mechancian.. lolz!!!! so happy!! and my mage.. is level 30!! heh~ very proud of my achievement. haha~ =D thank God!! thank God!! ahahahaha~

-ah_xun faced death at 1:15 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

8th july: so fast.. first week in school is coming to an end. sigh~ and i felt tat i didn't learn anything of any importance. the only thing i learnt is, more and more projects are coming up my way!! hahahaah~ so excited! can do project at last. long time no do le, a little bit off hand while we were doing the discussion. hmm.. hope we can get back the feel of handling project, like last semester.. hee~ =)

anyway, yesterday quarrelled with my sis. i wanted to call one of my best friend to talk, but suddenly i got a feeling tat she won't really care about this.. cos she always complain tat she's someone who is of 'poor life' -- pathetic life -- and always lead you one whole round to tell you tat. she's quite a nice friend actually, but sometime, i got a little fed up with her. watever thing she did, she always come up with an excuse if she didn't do well. why dun she just accept her failure, but instead, denying the fact tat she can't do it well. =( i dun like to say bad things about her.. cos she's really someone special to me. i always wanted to tell her this, but i fear tat our friendship will be at risk, and i really like her alot!

people alway say tat if someone keep too much things to herself, one day, she might just burst [i think it means go mad ba.. hmm..]. i quite agree with them. tat's why i wrote this bloggie at the first place. haha~ >_^ i feel tat when i grow older, lesser people wanna listen to me. they rather spend time with their 'good-oppsite-gender-friend' than to me. sigh~ then whenever i see them, the first question they ask will be, 'so how? you got boyfriend le ma? >=D'. frankly speaking, i can always fake up one and make the lie so well tat they won't know about it, but i dun like to lie about these things. ah!! how i hope tat they can know, not everyone wanna get married. lolz~ i mean, not everyone is so desperate for 'boyfriend's favour'!! heh.. ^^

lolz.. my topic for today like kinda no linkage with the above paragraph. haha~ =) anyway, i just notice, dunno from when onwards, the topic tat we shared among ourselves are always the same ones. like: 'my/your boyfriend this.. my/your boyfriend tat..', 'so how? got boyfriend le ma?', 'so how's you and your boyfriend?', 'you know wat? the guy did this to me..', 'hey! tat guy is so cute.. agree not?' ... blah~ blah~ blah~

familiar to some, rite? but i really dun care wat you did with your guy, or wat he did to you. please care more for your friend!! it sounds like i'm being jealous.. but no! i'm not! i'm just sick and tired of the same topic everyday!!! oh ya.. i'm not a lesbian btw.. hahaha...

-ah_xun faced death at 3:21 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

4th july: now is break time.. i'm at the e plaza, again, waiting for time to pass.. sigh~ so bored! >_<>

devil is strong indeed. it's everywhere, anywhere. haha~ dunno why suddenly thought of this, but i agreed with this sentence. it's always beside us, dropping wisphers into our hearts or ears, telling us to do or say something tat will hurt people. gossipings and back-stabbings are some of the well-known 'devil acts' from our mouth [ok.. i confess. i did these 2 things often last time]. if you are a christian, it's better to pray to God and ask Him to guard your mouth, the most sinnful and horrible part of the face.

i wonder why God gives us a mouth. is it for us to eat, to fill our stomach with food to meet our body needs or even, our desire? if so, why do He give us a vocal cord tat produces voice? seriously, i know a lot of people who have heard of this, i feel tat God gives us a mouth to encourage people who are down. He gives us a mouth so we can voice out our needs, our love, our praises to Him. i also feel tat He gives us lips, which helped in protecting our mouth, but also to keep our 'gaps' shut. i always dun like people who like to talk a lot [partly cos i'm quite a quiet person.. lolz~ =P]. i mean people.. dun you realize tat more and more people want to speak, but less and less people want to listen. we can't have a society where all speak but none listens. if there's no listeners, how do we know tat those speakers spoke well, full of senses? or are they just talking nonsense?

lolz~ dun bother about this bloggie. i only write for fun and laughter [cos verna's someone who dun like to talk about the 'ways of life']. all these above, no matter you agree to it or not, i dun care. wat i care is.. may God truly guard our mouths from the devil's doing! in Jesus name i pray. Amen! ^_<

-ah_xun faced death at 2:18 PM

4th july: school starts today. i just had my breakfast-cum-lunch. now sitting in the e plaza, updating this bloggie. =) felt so strange to come to school today. nearly cannot wake up [cos used to waking up at 9am.. ahaha~ and today need to reach school by 8am]. nothing much changed in the school. except tat there are new faces tat i neva see before.

anyway, i baptised yesterday! praise the LORD!! =) but felt quite sad cos while we were sitting down there [oh ya.. me baptised with my other friend], the host said something like, 'now the one to baptise is blah~blah~blah~. can her supporters please wave their hands?' i felt sad. cos my family members dun encourage me to baptise at all. but luckily got my friend's mother. she came to support her daughter, but i doubt tat any of them knew tat i felt good to see her. haha~ preharps God wan me to feel good ba.. dunno la.. hahahaha..

when i reached home, mother knew about it. she screamed at me. but i didn't rebuke her. after a while, she left me alone. but sad.. cos my father still thought tat i haven't baptise. den he came to tell me a lot of things tat make me felt weird. anyway, we ended there. i dun feel like telling them anything about how i feel. sigh~

dunno why, i felt tat me and my family members dun unite now. i mean, i felt tat we think and see differently [especially with my parents]. i felt depressed when my dad told me tat i dun have to go home after i baptised. but i truly trust tat Jesus Christ existed. He is brought back to life after 3 days of his death. i believe, too, tat there's a Father, a God, a Lord who created us, love us and care for us with all His heart. i believe tat Father is there. tat He's always availble to hear us, to provide for us, to love us, to care for us. i really love this Father!! and so, i love His Son, Jesus Christ too!!

the paster who prayed for me, told me tat 'the Lord knows. He will give you what you want if you remain as a faithful Christian.' i believed and i prayed. i think i know wat i want. thank God for assuring me tat You will keep Your promise to me. Amen!!

-ah_xun faced death at 10:40 AM