Death seeks me please...

Thursday, February 16, 2006

16th february: today so cold.. anyway, got to rush project like siao. got two coming up!! ah~!! and we like kinda last minute.. my fault. cos i very disorganized, den cause my groups to be affected. =P sorry!!

remember the ger whom i quarrelled with? well.. we talked! thank you, Father! at last.. lolz~ felt so weird during the cold war.. anyway.. phew~ hahahaah.. =)

-ah_xun faced death at 10:12 AM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

14th february: a supposed great day. i was so filled with anticipation for today. it's only the beginning of the day and one word to summarize it all: sux! idiot!!! er!!!! humph!!!! like shit la!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woke up eary in the morning by my mum. hate school days, especially when your room has the closet tat contains clothes of other siblings. they'll come in, go out, come in, on the light, slam the door of the closet if they can't find the freaking clothes, cursing along the way out, forgot to off the light, den stomp in to off the light after i shouted at them, den slam my door. i'm a light sleeper. people who knew me well knows. dun even need to on the light, just by opening the door of my room, i'll be awake! erzzzz~~!!! irritating!!! >=( btw, they refer to my mother, my father, my brother and my three sisters, and sometime, my grandma!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!

now in school. just went off from my project, so-'called 'discussion'. me and members are to meet bella this morning. anyway, to cut things short, i quarrelled with one of my team members [actually neva openly agrued, or else i scared i'll scold bad words. we had cold and black-faced war]. eventually, i couldn't take it anymore, so i left a note for her tat said 'if you are trying to make me angry, WELL DONE! YOU DID IT!', and left.

it's not the first time we quarrelled, but this's certainly the worst of the worst!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PEK CHEY!!!!!!!!

-ah_xun faced death at 10:48 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006

13th february: tomo is the day!! friendship day!! hahahahaha~ yesterday got double booster from liam. on sat, me and friends went kbox, den bugis to shop. when me and neighbour going home, she told me tat i changed a lot ever since i became a christian. i think it's a good thing. cos the bible says tat once you are a christian, God will change you. =) anyway, the point is, i was very alert though it's close to eleven. she was sleepy already. den i told her tat i was still awake cos liam smsed me a few days ago [wat i meant was, liam sms me, den i very alert for the next few days]. upon hearing this, she told me, tat so-called 'alertness' will soon die off. den i replied her, 'i'll sms him to sms me when the feeling is gone.' hahaha~

guess wat? on sunday, liam smsed me twice! haha~ double dosage, double boost! =D so today still quite cranky. lolz~ it's God's will ba.. hahahah~ anyway, dun think playing maple le.. cos got PS2!! lolz~ suikoden 4 still playing.. at the last phase le. have to say this.. sigmond sooooo..~~ handsome!!!!!!!! LOLZ!! >_^

okok le. g2g for class. jolyn!! hope you have fun in.. there!! haha~ may God bless you!!

-ah_xun faced death at 1:47 PM

Friday, February 10, 2006

10th february: today rained. so cold now.. cos i in e plaza. hahaha~ later gonna starts tut for june. hope it's fun! anyway, today wee neva come to school. so sad! i really liked her, both in perosn and lecturer. how i hope tat the one not here.. will be someone else. lolz~ so evil! i'm just kidding.

yesterday showed my younger sis my class photos. she said tat there's a lot of pretty gers in my class.. [lolz~ i'm honoured.. =)] den the funny part was: she saw emily, den she said, this one very 'mei' [pretty]. den after a few photo, she said, 'this one also!'. den i replied her, 'they are the same person ma!'. LOLZ!! so funny! hahaahhaha~

today she taking her o level result. all the best to ya, ya hear me?! may God bless you to have the result tat you deserved. =) anyway, got to attend class le. hope the rain will stop, or sles dun know how to get home later.. hahaha~ >_^

-ah_xun faced death at 1:50 PM

Thursday, February 09, 2006

9th february: just eaten my lunch-cum-breakfast, but.. still very hungry le!! ah!! i so hungry recently tat my friends asked me whether i'm expecting is it. lolz~ =P can't help it.. really very hungry..=(

anyway, today had my first presentation of the new semester! on bipolar de. i felt tat it's not a very good one, but those classmates whom i asked said ok. hmm.. maybe they dun wanna break my heart or is it really fine? watever~ it's over! ahhaahah~ >=D by the way, after hearing jolyn's calss took photos for graduation, my class took ours today. we had so much fun sia! everyone squeezed together, den i stood on a chair to let people see me [though i'm tall enough.. lolz~].. it's supposed to be informal, but after a few shots, the result: all stiff, forced smiles, sleepy eyes, no actions [not even a peace sign], blah~ blah~ but overall, it's fun. hee~ =)

my butt so big!! so sianz of looking at it. lolz~ dun ask me why i typed these sentence cos.. it's a fact! ... ... crap! i dun make sense. lolz~ anyway, i kept looking at my hip today. flat butt, with wide hip.. ah~!! wat can be worse than this! hopefully.. when i grow up [in fact, i'm grown up ke.. hahaha~], my butt will be smaller. ... ... ... ok.. i admit.. i'm cheating myself! it's my iliac crest tat's big! another word, it's bones we are talking about! how to make it smaller other than smashing the bones, file it.. aiyoz~ so sad!

by the way.. dun know whether i've said this before, but i felt blessed yesterday and today! haha~ thanks to God's mercy and grace! recently did something quite evil.. i did confessed to God. He forgiven me le ba.. tat's why i in very good mood recently! hahaha~ and everything i do went on smoothly. thank you, Father!

people, be it you are christians or not, when you felt real gulity, or sad, or lost, damn depressed, hopleless, or any other negative feelings in you, talk to God or Lord Jesus. trust me.. after you confess and ask for forgiveness [if u know you did something >=/], or told Him about your feelings and thoughts, ask for His will to be done, and you'll feel great! ahahah~ sometime even betta, God came to your rescue before you asked Him for help! like to share this.

once, in year one i think. i was sooo..~ depressed.. cos i felt tat no one liked me, and no one will ever love me so much tat he will sacrifice himself for me. so i cried over tat matter, and nearly.. [i meant it.. nearly..] jumpped down from my flat. but tat nite [the nite i decided to jump], i received a sms from my friend [forgot who le.. lolz~]. it said something like, do you feel lost? depressed? do you know tat you're loved? do you know tat there's someone who gives up His life for you cos He really loves you? i really loves you. sender: Jesus Christ.

tell you.. when i saw tat sms, it really touched me tat i cried so hard on it. ever since, i decided to baptise and really be a christian. it's pretty nice to know tat, even though you are nobody [even to yourself, you feel tat you sux, you are the worst~], you are somebody to HIm. He's Son of God. imagine yourself holding a place in the heart of someone so.. great, mercy, gentle.. kind and passionate.. the best part, no matter how busy He is, He'll hear you. He'll will come at the right time tat will really touched you. He'll always be there for you, be it as an advisor, listener, partner. nice rite? hee~ =)

-ah_xun faced death at 10:48 AM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

7th february: in school again~ wore a black skirt tat i bought for new year. and guess wat? the first 2 friends tat i saw asked me wehther i bought it from a certain shop. but the problem is, i dun even know the name of the shop and the brand of the skirt. lolz~ wat a shopper.. =P

today in a pretty good mood, cos i felt tat God is blessing me. hahahaha~ thank you, Father! dunno who told me tat, i worked according to my mood, or, my mood controls me. hmmm.. dun know whether is it good or not? anyway, this morning received a sms from both my sis and my teacher tat says tat a child is needing o- blood. udn know whether true or not de, so i deleted it. sigh~ dun ask me why i didn't spread the news, cos i dun even know the reason for me deleting it away =(

today i went to the photocopy auntie there to print something. one whole stack of notes sia! and i need to make 5 copies. lolz~ anwyay, me and my friends waited for 30 minutes. guess the result of the printing. 1/4 of each page is blank! den we told the auntie and she replied, 'no choice lor.. since you all wan today, so take it or leave it.'

'wat the..' i thought, but didn't say it in front of her. so pretty 'cool-ly' [is there such a word? lolz~], i told her tat wei'll take it tomo. den you know wat she did? she just threw the stack of notes [around 500 pieces] to the side! practically threw it!! i can't believe my eyes sia! it's like, we wasted 30 min and so many pieces of papers. oh ya! and dun know how much ink! all this can be prevented only if she saw the first copy tat was printed by tat printer. sigh~!! >=(

forget it.. dun let this thing spoil my mood. anyway, i received a sms from liam! hahaha~ very long time neva talk to him le. haahah~ may God bless you, liam!! =)

-ah_xun faced death at 3:30 PM

Friday, February 03, 2006

3rd february: wa~ juz eaten my lunch cum breakfast. hahaah~ recharged at last! yesterday slept at ten pm. but still feel very tired.. dunno why.. hmm =( today supposed to meet joyn and kavi to school, but i overslept! sorry kavi! sorry jolyn!!

today hardly talk to my classmates.. cos, i dunno. hahahahah~ lame shit. anyway, now doing project. lolz~ not focusing on it. hahaha~ =P hope today will be a fun day!

-ah_xun faced death at 3:59 PM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

1st february: happy chinese new year to all! =) time passes so fast.. it's yet... another new year.. so boring sia!! lolz~ i neva like new year cos.. i dun like people who come our house for the celebration. imagine seeing so many people who neva fails to criticize your small little living room and stuffy air in every rooms. very sianz rite? dun understand why they kept complaining so much. having a roof over the head for living is great enough, and also, they neva think de le.. there's like 22 people in a 4-room flat. not stuffy den got problem sia!! >=/ anyway, put all those people behind.

oh ya.. i thought today is monday. guess wat? lolz~ >=D i brought monday's lecture notes, and came school at 10. the worse part was tat, my tut class starts at 9am!! nightmare!! ahhh~~... 'my 3 years in school with 100% attendance.. is.. GONE!' was wat i'm thinking. and guess wat again? hee~ >=D when i reached school, i called my friends to meet for early lunch. they told me tat today's tut is cancelled!! hahahahahaha~!! >=) so happy!!! LOLZ!! must thank God for this!! thank you, Father!! hahahahhaha~~.. =D

lolz.. btw, i bought a ps2 at last.. yes!! since last year january, i always dream of having one.. and i got it! hee~ thank you father again! =) so for the past 4 days [sat to tue], i played suikoden iv from morning 10 plus to morning [?! yup.. a.m.] 4 plus.. lolz~ so shiok! so only have 3 hours of sleep.. very sleepy now.. lolz! serve me rite! hahahahaha~ >=)

p.s.: xiao bin bin, sorry for not replying your msg on the taggy. i'm using my school's computer, so access to tat link is denied. anything, please sms me! thanks lotz! =D

-ah_xun faced death at 10:05 AM