Death seeks me please...

Thursday, March 31, 2005

31st march: for the past 3 days, whenever i woke up, the sky was darken by the grey clouds. tat worried me a little for i need to reach school in 2 hours time, and i dun know whether it will rain while i'm still walking on the unsheltered area towards school. but luckily, as a christian, i believed tat it's God who controlled the weather. i prayed for no rain during tat stretch of road, and God, mercifully, granted my wish =) very thankful tat God had blessed me, for i see his miracle's act!! haha~ =D though it's only a simple prayer for a simple thing, i'm glad tat God had answered it.. hee~ >_^

anyway, for the past few days, i had been pretty stressed up by the uproaring events tat are taking place, one by one. i had quite a few project discussions going on, and at the same time, group members are not co-operating quite well [each of us has our say and point of view tat they think are important]. maybe cos we didn't really elect any one as the group leader ba.. lolz~ at least those 'possible' leaders dun wanna be leaders, and i dun feel secure working with one of my classmates, cos she's a little straight forward and impatient, and.. lack of knowledge [whenever there's a meeting, she's the one asking for the definition for all the nouns when the lecturer had mentioned about them a lot of times.. and the best part, the lecture notes had all the answers!! =\]. with all the menbers talking at the same time, i was irritated.. very.. so, whenever they ask me for a comment, i simply said, "anything lor, up to you". haha~ now, come to think of it, tat's why some looked angry when i repeated tat sentence to everyone. haha~ =P

so~ with all the stressful events and hormonal changes, i'm tired easily and hot-tempered recently. whoever felt insulted or unhappy cos of me, forgive me!! =P

-ah_xun faced death at 3:29 PM

Monday, March 28, 2005

28th march: continue with the previous entry..

just had my practical lab.. lolz~ we did apex beat today. very fun sia!! hahaha~ =D one or two of my classmates like a little bit, ah.. out of control.. lolz~ =) now having break.. of.. 13 minutes. still got class later all the way to 7 pm sia!! sianz sia.. now chatting with my friend, hong. haha~ making fun of her english now.. quite enjoyed it. haahaha~ =) she said she also hungry, when i'm not hungry. lolz~ dun know wat she trying to say.. ahahah~

today quite enjoyed myself.. overall.. ahaha~

-ah_xun faced death at 4:40 PM

28th march: class gonna starts at 3 pm later. it's 2.20 now, so decided to pop in to update my bloggie before forgetting about it. haha~ =) now in e-plaza.. just now the environment was good, cos quiet.. but now, suddenly got a group of people coming in and settled here.. sigh~ anyway, nothing much happen recently. supposed to go church yesterday de, but couldn't wake up, so din go in the end.. sigh~ =( happened many times le..

oh yea.. liam didn't sms me for the last 3 days. think he reaches his limit or maybe he got his handphone bill le ba.. lolz~ but i dun really mind.. cos.. cos..

luffy-san seems to avoid me recently. dun like the feeling of it. sigh~ i dun care and i dun mind, as long as he dun talk to me again. =P

oh.. just started reading a book by robert jordan, called the eye of the world. it's nice!! really.. if anyone has a chance to read it, please read it with pride. lolz~ >=D

suddenly dun feel like continuing my updating le. not cos of luffy-san. just no mood.. haha~ =P

-ah_xun faced death at 2:28 PM

28th march: class gonna starts at 3 pm later. it's 2.20 now, so decided to pop in to update my bloggie before forgetting about it. haha~ =) now in e-plaza.. just now the environment was good, cos quiet.. but now, suddenly got a group of people coming in and settled here.. sigh~ anyway, nothing much happen recently. supposed to go church yesterday de, but couldn't wake up, so din go in the end.. sigh~ =( happened many times le..

oh yea.. liam didn't sms me for the last 3 days. think he reaches his limit or maybe he got his handphone bill le ba.. lolz~ but i dun really mind.. cos.. cos..

luffy-san seems to avoid me recently. dun like the feeling of it. sigh~ i dun care and i dun mind, as long as he dun talk to me again. =P

suddenly dun feel like continuing my updating le. not cos of luffy-san. just no mood.. haha~ =P

-ah_xun faced death at 2:20 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

21st march: starting class at 12.05pm is always a lousy day.. cos when we start late, it means tat we end late. today ends class at 7pm. from now [1.19pm] to the next class [which starts at 6 pm], i have more than 4 hours of break. sigh.. lousy starts, lousy ends..

joanne's presentation was alrite just now, but think tat 'handsome' ong giving them low grade [maybe a high c+ or a low b-, but considering their relationship with tat 'ong lai', they should have a a- ba]. her presentation was about memory. den they teach us to make short term memory to long term ones. so we played a game [remembering all the pictures and list down as many as possible], and here came the problem.. yvonne [one of the presenter] told shu hong, 'why you cannot remember anything?' well, she's known to be frank, but most of the time, she dun mean wat she said [really lor!!]. anywya, shu hog got insulted and her face suddenly turned black.

i knew she's angry, so tired talking to her. but dunno why, she ingored me. at first i thought tat she didn't hear me, she i repeated, and she remind the same. sigh~ den i know tat she's angry with me too. ah~ wat have i done? nothing tat i knew tat i've done wrongly de ma. sigh~ gers~ >=( anyway, she talked to me in the end, but cos i'm still a little angry tat she vent her unhappiness on me, i tired to make the converstaion short. supposed to go lunch together de, i backed up in the end [cos need to calm myself down a little, before i angry with her again]. sigh.. gers~ lolz~ i'm petty too~ =P

btw, yesterday's 'lord of the rings -- the fellowship of the ring' at channel 5 was great!! haha~ the 'legolas' very handsome sia!! lolz~ >=D tat's why when the movie just came out in the cinema, a lot of ppl went to watch him only. hahaha~ cute fans of his..

-ah_xun faced death at 1:18 PM

Friday, March 18, 2005

18th march: i passed!! i passed!! lolz~ i passed!!! >=D so happy tat i passed my lab test sia!! hahahaha~ must thank God cos when i went in, i cannot find the medication tat i need [all thanks to the brand and generic names of the drugs..] i was so scared sia! den i prayed to God, 'Lord Father.. i wanna pass this test!! please help me!!'. upon praying, i took the medication tat i suspect was the right one, and started my practical test.

during the test, i had nothing in my brain tat's helping me. i said anything tat i thought was rite, and luckily [again, God bless me.. lolz~ ^_<], the examiner guided me along the way, and thank God tat she didn't ask me any weird or hard-to-understand questions!! and in the end [though i took one hour for the test], she passed me!! lolz~ >=D hahaha~ so happy now~~ =) luckily my gang friends all pass too!! really man, thank you so much Lord!! hahaha~ ^_<

ok.. anyway, need to rush on projects and tests recently, so neva update my blog. haha~ =P i will try my best to update it everday de, though i think no one will follow closly to this. hee~ >=)

oh yea~ liam's been very rich recently. he smsed me almost everyday since my last entry. haha~ working le ma.. tat's why so rich. lolz~ kidding!! ^^, hope he's fine over there.

prayer of the day: Father Lord, please continue to bless my family members and friends and people who i know of, with good health.. veyr good health [cos recently a lot of passerby fall sick le]!! well God, please bless those who are sick to recover from the illnesses tat troubling them. Father, may i pray tat You will continue to protect them too, christians and non-christian alike, for Lord, lossing any of those tat i know will hurt me badly. Lord, please bless their family members too. thank you Lord. may i pray for all these things in Jesus' name. Amen.

-ah_xun faced death at 12:31 PM

Monday, March 14, 2005

14th march: ok.. it went on well. nothing special tat i wanna say, except tat i speak a little too much.. sigh.. =P den after tat felt happy cos all my friends like awake.. hahaha~ =) thank God!!! hee~ =D den after tat is my friends presentation for mr handsome ong. it didin't goes one well. my conclusion is rite.. he sux!!! >=P i'm rite for likeing him at the first place.. guessed wat he did? he laughed at the speakers when they didn't understand wat they are speaking.. i mean, it's their fault tat they are not well-prepared, but he shouldn't lauged at them so openly lor!! >=( den i asked my friends are they ok not, they told me tat when they went to ask him how to do, he didn't tell them anything except telling them to find out. ah~!! where got this type of ppl de?! sigh.. anyway, dun like him la..

shu hong and some of my other friends had tests today.. the killer, clinicial lab!! all the best!! haha~ =D

-ah_xun faced death at 12:51 PM

Friday, March 11, 2005

11th march: today is a cold day. it drizzle alittle while i was having my lunch with shu hong. now in e plaza again [like usual la.. whenever shs students are free, we camped at there till our next class starts.. ahaha~ =D] i only updated my bloggie when i'm at here.. so, if i go attachment, dun expect to hear anything about me for at least 2 weeks.. hee~ ^^ anyway.. now feel so cold sia!! ah~~ neva bring jacket again.. sigh..

me and shu hong had been looking for ee nor [our mch lecturer] for like 2 days le, and she neva even answer our call(s).. sigh.. den still need my friend to tell us where is she so tat we can find her. and when we found her [she's having a class], shu hong went in to ask her when will she be free, and she told her, 'aiyo.. even when i'm eating also got disturbed by students..' lolz~ guessed wat's my first thought? i was thinking.. 'cos you didn't answer our miss call and you are not in the office for like, the whole day?' =P very bad hor? haahahaha.. =P anyway, found her at last. hope tat she can give us some good tips tat we can improve on, rather than critising on it [cos we only did a 8 pages project when it supposed to be a 20-minutes presentation.. lolz~ >=)]

confession: did something not nice yesterday night. sigh.. dun feel good about it. felt tat i had betrayed God like tat.. sigh.. sorry Lord!! =( hope christians who see this bloggie, please pray for me.. not to do things tat God dislikes.. sigh..

-ah_xun faced death at 3:13 PM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

10th march: exam just finished!! haha~ very happy though the paper is hard. =D things tat i had studied hardly comes out.. lolz~ very funny sia, cos those tat i didn't studied came out!! hahaha~ ^^ dun know why like tat le.. maybe cos i prayed wrongly or not sincered enough ba.. lolz~ or maybe cos God wanna test me, or maybe cos i neva put in enough effort.. hahaha~ >=D think i know the main reason ba.. cos i didn't put in the effort! think it's pretty obvious ba.. i just read through the whole book yesterday and a little bit of the notes today. hee~ okok.. i know.. it's my fault!! lolz~ ^_<>_^

now still in shool, waiting for my friend till 8pm. hope their teacher will be nice again.. but this time round, i'm waiting for jolyn, not violet. haha~ =D hope i'll have a good nite sleep. hope liam have a good nite sleep and a peaceful day today. hope all my friends and family members are safe now. Father Lord, continue to protect them from any forms of evil acts, and bless them with good health! hee~ thanks Lord!! =)

-ah_xun faced death at 7:17 PM

10th march: clinical lab theory test at 6pm to 7pm today. i hardly remembered anything.. sigh~ and my friend, shu hong, sitting beside me is reading the notes like crazy~!! lolz~ luckily she's busy revising her stuff, neva see this sentence.. haha~ >=) now listening to ou de yang's 'peng you' [friends in chinese la..] very nice le!!! =D long time neva hear his voice le.. and i'm neva sick of listening to his songs. hee~ in love with his voice le.. hahaha~ ^^ how i hope tat he can starts his own concert soon.. trust me, even he's not good-looking, he surely did charm most of his audiences with his voice >_^ and if he really did open a concert and it comes to singapore, i'll buy his tickets de!!! hahaha~ >=D

sms of the day: ever wondered why fishes swim? ever wondered why birds fly? ever wondered why i sms so late? cos things are made this way. fishes need to swim, birds need to fly. and i like to sms you late, before i go to bed.

nice beginning, but if you think for a while after reading it, you might find it lame ba.. hahaha~ kidding, kidding.. ^_<>

ok la.. need to stop here.. going for lunch now.. haha~ may God bless all those taking exam today!!! =D

-ah_xun faced death at 12:18 PM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

9th march: so cold!! been in the e plaza for the past 3 hours. not bad for someone who's cold intolerance!! haha~ =) anyway, waiting for friend now, and at the same time, doing revisions for theory test tomorrow. only did a third of the topics le~!! might fail.. might fail. lolz~ but i'm not scared and dun really care!! hahaah~ >=D

qian ru gave me something today. not a bad present. it's a heart-shaped glass bottle, containing sand and some seashells. the shells very nice!! like tiny conches. very cute la.. but one bad thing is tat, the sand smerge a little. but neva mind, go home, i'll clean it!! haha~ thanks ger!! ^^

been quite close with liam recently. well, a least got sms each other every other day. got happy to receive his messages, at least, it make me felt glad tat i knew soemone like him.. =) thank God for bringing us together!! haha~ >_^ well.. now i dun know who i like le. like no one to like. first time like tat.. hahaha.. must go and find someone to like le, or else i will rot to death!! lolz~ cos ran out of topic to talk to violet le. so need to find something tat attracts mine and her's attention. hee~ thought of sharing the things tat liam and me talked about de.. but dun know why, i scared tat she might not be happy to heard them. though she's always very enthu to hear wat we are saying to each other, i got a strange feeling tat she might not really wanna hear about it, but acting enthu cos dun wan to disappoint me. sigh..

aiyo.. one by one my friends left me.. first is shu hong, now is joanne.. when will violet appear?! ah~~ going mad alone le!! ah~~ lolz.. =P me is the only nr 0306 left in the plaza.. now only 4:32 pm.. how i hope tat her lecturer will be kind enough to release her early!! i wanna go home~!! =`( when i reached home, need to study for my tests.. den after tat need to watch tv.. den after tat need to play computer game.. den search for pictures for my 'infant care' project.. den maybe will eat something.. den study again, den read comic.. den sleep ba.. hmmm.. lolz~ ^^ tests tomorrow still can be so relax de.. hahaha~ think only me like tat ba!! hahaha~

lolz~ just saw two of my other friends in the plaza.. so, great!! hahaha. i'm not alone!! hee~ =D thank God!! before leaving this bloggie to continue the quest of 'memorizing-stupid-therapies-for-tomo's-exam', may God bless everyone who's studying for it, wisdom and strength to be able to understand and remember all the facts tat are applicable for tomorrow's exam!! may God bless everyone in my class, and of cos, those tat i knew la!! haha~ ^_<

-ah_xun faced death at 4:14 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

8th march: indeed.. it's not a happy day yesterday. got a feeling tat something will happen and i'm rite with it. quarrelled with my younger sis, and beat her up too. =P God please forgive me for it.. sigh..

mum's curry sucks.. it's more of chilli oil than curry. dunno wat my siblings did to it, when i reached home yesterday nite, the curry only left oil. so i only ate the oil.. sigh.. >=(

luckily today is betta. things goes on pretty well. just had my lunch after 3 lectures, now having my 3 hours break. came to school alone today. hahaha~ not a bad experience.. hee~ =) can read my comic and dun have to bother to think of wat to talk to anyone. guessed tat i enjoy loner's life ba.. hahaha~ ^_<>

-ah_xun faced death at 3:48 PM

Monday, March 07, 2005

7th march: yesterday just went to church. nice service there!! hahaha~ church of singapore is full of friendly people, humour pastors, cool environment and most of all, the only church so far tat i can feel God's presence.. hee~ =) the brother sharing with us yesterday said tat greed, envy and cowardly are the downfall of human race. agree not? at least i do, cos i experienced these 3 things often in my life.. hahah.. >_<

today went to school with violet. like usual, the things tat we can talked about are getting lesser.. very hard to bring up any topic, except anime [where we can talk for a while about it]. dunno why, i can't really stand her anymore.. maybe cos i always think tat she's acting cute infront of me. she always have tat accent. hmmm.. maybe it's always there, but i just notice it recently.. hahaha~ =P

anyway, mum cooked curry today!! think she cooked at 3 am, especially for me.. hahha~ i'm touched.. so today i must eat her curry!!! hee~ ^^

-ah_xun faced death at 12:51 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

5th march: today did nothing much, as usual la.. woke up at 9 am, study for a while, had my lunch at around 12:30 pm, den play runescape, den go shop for my sis stuff.. blah~ blah~ ... ... ... life's so boring.. at least for now.. dun feel like doing anything and wanna be bored till death finds me. haha~ joker!! =P anyway, nothing much happened, except tat i received a sms from w-san again. simple message, so dun feel like talking about it.

i just thought the past this morning. mum said tat i used to be very hyper, very tom-boy, very cute (?!), and the most important thing [she finds it important], i'm the most obedient child in the family. lolz~ if tat's the truth, i changed a lot [i meant it]. i remembered tat last time, i liked to laugh, like to greet people and i like to obey wat my mum said. haha~ =P she must had been very disappointed now ba.. >_<>=)

-ah_xun faced death at 3:04 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

3rd march: yesterday, w-san gave a shock of my life.. he smsed me and told me tat the w-san in my blog, is tat him? wa~!!! i'm so shocked to receive it lor~! cos this bloggie is mean for me to vent my anger or to write anything tat i wan fated ppl to see de. i didn't expect him to see this blog.. lolz~ =) maybe cos i wrote too much things about him le ba, or maybe cos i wrote some things tat are not pleasant ba and i dun wan anyone [esp. ppl tat i liked] to know. hmm.. anyway.. doubt he'll visit it again.. haha~ >=D

-ah_xun faced death at 11:03 AM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

1st march: today is the second day of my holiday. did nothing much except sending some pictures to my friends who kept on pestering me for them.. sigh~ just by sending the pictures, i know wat type of person one can be. for example, one of my friends only wanted the pictures with her inside. she dun wan the pictures with animals.. where got this type of 'ren' de? we go zoo le~ and she dun wan the animals' pic.. hmmm.. weird.. anyway, went to zoo on saturday. dun enjoy it much.. firstly, it rained a little. secondly, one of my friends is sick. thirdly, which make me dun enjoy the trip, 2 of my other friends sat down with her whenever they spotted any benches. where on earth did anyone who went to the zoo, paying 14 bucks, just to sit down on the benches and talk?! ah!!! die! very angry now.. 'calm down verna.. tat's not supposed to be the way..' [now thinking to myself].

anyway.. dun intend to go zoo with them anymore le. sigh.. esp. with the one who only wanted her pic. lolz~ seems like i only angry with her ba.. hmmm.. >=( dun know la.. had been quarrelling with her since the entry of poly. she changed a lot le.. not like her usual self.. she's more vain and smarter, and likes to give me tat type of stare whenever she's offended [to tell the truth, sometimes, i did it on purpose de.. hee~ >=D].. it's not the end yet! whenever she comes to me to tell me about her problems, she always have tat eyes.. tat irritating eyes!! ah!! >=O can't believe it tat i'm still going out with her, cos this is the character tat i dislike and despise the most!! humph!! i dun understand why her friends thought tat she's saintly, innocent and navie. dunno who's the one who gives her tat false illusion.. well, i dared to say tat she's not so 'guai' as most people think she is!!! doubt anyone know tat she have been telling me most of these people's bad points to me ba? doubt anyone know tat she have been showing me the look whenever she mentioned their names ba? doubt anyone knows tat she's actually not humble, not sweet and definatly not cute in her true self ba?! >=(

ok.. i felt better now, after saying those things out.. funny to say, i dun felt any gulit any writing these and i'm not afraid if anyone, even her, sees this. cos i didn't even mention her name.. hahaha~ =P

-ah_xun faced death at 2:27 PM