In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief That I Long
The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away

me
they call me verna
i have lived for 21 years
my favourite thing is emptiness
what i want most is happiness
i want to be remembered by God
i love my dead dog the most

friends?
[x].stephine.
[x]~jolyn~
[x].kavi.
[x]~shikin~
[x].catherine.
[x]~shuhong~
[x].joanna.
[x]~josephine~
[x].beiyi.
[x]~lorraine~
[x].shuping.

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
4th october: life isn't going well for me nowadays.. kept having a feeling of sadness [or depression] whenever i do anything. the best part, this attutide make me dun feel like doing anything, and today i'm having my gerontology exam. sigh~

kept having insomina and chest pain, and headache too. dun know wat's going on within me, but i hope tat everything will go on well after today. but sad to say, i'm not doing well in friendship too. been comparing myself with them recently, especially with those tat i know tat i can neva be like them. ... ... ... dun tell me.. i still have identity crsis? =( hope not.. nineteen already.. coming to adulthood soon.. sigh..

or is it lol [lack of love]? i know my family loved me and so do God, but sometime i'm so stuborn tat i dun wanna see tat they do. weird rite? dun like it, but there's nothing i can do. ah!!! feel like.. sigh.. sinnful thoughts again.. =(

tried calling my closer friends to talk, but one sleeping, another not home. den i tried calling the friend who always tell me tat she will be there for me when i needs someone to talk to, but.. i dun know wat to tell her cos.. very long neva speak to her, and she's very busy with guys [surrounding her] and her own family problems. sigh.. now den i know tat friendship will not last if contact with the person is not consistent =P hate hate hate hate hate!!

-ah_xun faced death at 10:27 AM

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