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bloody NC AZIAH

2008-01-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

31st january: 30th's my second nite shift. neva thought tat nite shift can be so.. DISGUSTING!! STUPID NC AZIAH! I HATE YOU!! YEA.. I AGREED TAT U ARE FAT AND BIG, BUT I'M NOT BLIND NOT TO NOTICE YOU!! IDIOT YOU FOR SCOLDING ME BLIND, LAZY AND NOT OBSERVANT!! I REALLY HATE YOU!! DIDN'T SEE YOU MEANS DIDN'T SEE YOU!! THINK YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NEEDED COUSELLING FOR YOUR BAD ATTITUDE!! I DUN INTEND TO CRY IN FRONT OF YOU. I DUN INTEND TO LET YOU WIN!! ANYMORE.. I MEAN IT.. ANYMORE UNTRUE THINGS YOU SAY BOUT ME, I'LL MAKE A POLICE REPORT FOR PERSONAL INSULT!! TRY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!

hell-o.

2007-07-13T14:46:00.000+08:00

13th july: life have neva been worse. i hate to live. stop commanding me to talk when i dun wan to. sorry to say this, but this is my life. i wish no interference, especially from you who acted as if you really care. i knew you wan to know wat happen so tat you can tell other people tat you know me better. i had nothing to say to you.
i hate you. why didn't you come when i needed you. why didn't you speak, to stop me when i really wan to end this pathetic life. i only wan your comfort. tat's wat i ask for. but you refuse to give me. you took happiness away from me. i learnt not to wish things from you for you only give it to people tat you like. i know you dun love me as much for i'm not your precious son. doesn't matter. i'm disappointed in you. really, i am.

not a day..

2006-09-26T09:55:00.000+08:00

26th september: it's not a good day today. felt pretty tired for no reasons. being having day-off for the past two days. today's the third and the last day.. have to face stress and torture for the next few eight days for my next day-off.. sigh~ heck..

anyway, watch 'john tucker must die' with violet on sunday. quite a hilarious one. not too bad for people who got cheated before.. at least me and quack had a good laugh. ^^ tell you.. my face was stern for the last few days. couldn't smile or laugh for real. maybe cos i'm stressed up. they actually threw me, alone with one junior. couldn't believe my eyes when i first saw the roster. but thank God tat izzaty's a competent junior. she's cheerful and sweet. pretty too. thank God for her once again tat she's my junior for the past few days. she's really nice ya know.. cos of my incompetency, she didn't go for her break. felt quite bad deep within. when i apologized to her. she replied, 'neva mind la~ it's ok~! =)' so sweet~~~ but i'm really, really felt ... ... bad. T_<

i'm intending to watch 'stay alive' alone next wed. should be quite nice frightenig myself ba.. hahahaha~ ^^

okok

2006-09-17T23:36:00.001+08:00

17th september: i must apologize to those whom i hurt unknowingly. sorry to have cause any harm or displeasure to you. please let me know who are you if you feel tat you need an explaination about why i did tat to you. kindly remind me about the date and time, the incident, wat you and i had been discussing earlier. thank you. sorry for all the inconvience caused.

ok. back to blogging. recently, i'm addicted to watch movie by myself. just watched 'little man' alone on monday. supposed to watch it with my friend on sunday, but i was so tired from work tat i fell asleep while waiting for the time to pass. unfortunately, my friend was upset and irritated by me. when she called, i told her why i'm overslept. she said it's ok. after five minutes, i received a msg from her saying, 'actually i'm not ok. in fact, i'm quite irritated of you.' knowing tat she felt tat i overslept on purpose, i deleted her msg, and did not reply to it. am i at fault?

though so, the next day, i went to the cinema to watch the show by myself. enjoyed it very much. hahaha~ ^^ after a few days, tat friend called me. she aked me if i'm free to go out. i told her frankly tat i dun have the mood. den she told me, 'ok! den you have fun playing your playstation!' [using a forced 'cheerful' voice] and hanged. to me, i felt tat she was sarcastic. after a few minutes she called again. asking me if i wanna go out the following day. i told her tat i'm noon shift. guessed wat she reply me? ... ... quite tough huh? she told me the same thing, 'ok! have fun playing your playstation!'

if you happened to read this, dun be offended. i'm just saying how i felt. need to discuss bout this matter? sure. contact me.

been quite tired of life, but still need to go on.. cos i dun have the courage to end it now. nevatheless, if i really do end this life, dun think God will ever accept me into His arms of comfort, love and warmth.. Father, to tell You the truth.. i really feel like ending this pathetic life of mine several times.. You knew it.. but for the sake of Your promise tat at the end of life, those who won the battle will enjoy the rewards.. to stay in a place where You will wipe away all tears from our eyes. where sins are neva to be found. where joy fills every corner of our hearts. Father, for tat promise, i'm willing to wait. to endure. to remain alive. Father, i thank you for Geraldine who you send to tell me, or rather, remind me of this promise. please bless her greatly. may she be a great servant of Yours one day.

loonng timme nnooo seee!!

2006-07-22T10:24:00.000+08:00

22nd july: hey! long time no blog! you all must be thinking tat i gave up on my life. yea? no?! LOLZ.. fine~ ^^ anyway, started working already!!! so scared! people over there like kinda got mood swings. can't say anything much.. coz a lot of people got caught for saying their true hearts out. sigh~ so weird..

work's fine with me. been working for the past 1 month.. still no weekend off yet. dunno when is she gonna give me one. sigh~ =3 guess wat? i watched 'pirates of the carribean' already!! hahaha~ ^^ so happy!! it's a very nice movie. dun understand why the magazines rated it quite low. some even say tat the story is complicated? weird.. i find it so damn straight forward! must be the previewers watching nite shows. falling asleep.. lolz~!! >=)

anyway, i watched it alone. first time doing so. can't find anyone to go with me, so.. FUN!! quite exciting. like going for camp trip. lolz~ i sounded like a child.. =P hahah~ =D working really made me felt like no life.. especially you have to work on both sunday and saturday, and having rest days on mondays.. weird~ indeed!! >_<

may God carry me through this period of time! AMEN!

heh

2006-05-07T20:34:00.001+08:00

7th may: life is short, live it worthwhile. like real.. frankly, i find it a little too long. lolz~ maybe cos i haven't find anything of purpose tat i should fight for, or live on. neva mind..

attachment finally over!! yea!! so damn happy!! lolz.. i dyed my hair.. red.. LOLZ..and cut it real short. sis say like butch. but i dun care!! HAHAHA!! =) just hope tat the person i like dun mind it.. hahahahahahah..

the damned day

2006-04-01T11:12:00.000+08:00

1st april: birthday is coming.. and i dun feel like celebrating. maybe cos of attachment. whenever i thought of my b'day, i felt drained out. anyway, tat's not the point. today supposed to go bank to take money for bills [father and mother can't afford to pay for dunno wat reasons]. just asked my youngest sis to go with me to bank.. damn her!! said wat, 'i'm sick.. i can't move..' WAT THE HACK!!! sick? like real sia!! yesterday still can quarrel with me! today suddenly sick?! got so damn angry!! so i threw somethings to vent my anger.. but still very angry!~! sick.. more of like she slept late last night and dun wan to company me down ba!!!! IDIOT!!!!! very angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ouch..

2006-03-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

27th march: ouch.. it hurts.. it comes and goes but nobody knows.. please leave me alone.. it hurts.. ouch..

today is the first day of attachment. we had our orientation. been sitting down for the past 8 hours, and listening to people, one after another, talking. dun think will like the place.. *sigh* ouch.. it hurts again..

life..

2006-03-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

24th march: i'm sick. sick in the heart, sick in my body.. so tired.. energy drained off. anyway, just to report tat my exam is over, and er.. next monday starts attachment for 6 weeks. den will be graduating after tat.

been living for nearly twenty years already.. life.. till now still can't figure out if it's sux, or rulz.. suddenly felt like sighing.. so.. *sigh~*

depressed..

2006-03-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

20th march: sigh.. attachment posting is finally out.. sigh.. i rather it's not out.. going to be in some ward which i dun even choose, nor do i know wat discipline is it.. sigh.. dun like it.. somehow.. hate it.. bro told me, sometimes it's better to work with people you dunno, cos can learn new things from them. hopefully everything turn on well.......... sigh.........

hahaha..

2006-03-10T09:09:00.000+08:00

10th march: i prayed again! today went school with kavi and jolyn. very fun!! hahahaha~ thank you, Father for giving me a chance for seeing them before the last day in school. along the way, jolyn and kavi kept saying tat it's the last time tat we can go to school together, it's the last itme we can enjoy the views on our way to school.. blah~ blah~ sounds sad.. but i dun really feel anything apart from.. able to go to school with them, sharing the joy, gossips, saddness, stress, junks and lameness.. *sigh* =( i'll miss you both. trust me >_^V

yesterday played kingdom hearts till pretty late. i restarted the game two times to check some combination of the questions. saw two different guides, both say different things. lolz~ so.. with doubts, i restart to see who's rite. guess wat? ... ... both are rite!! LOLZ!! waste my time.. hahhaha~ >=D but good la.. at least my heart felt a little more at ease.

bro bought dvd cleaner at last. but a problem arise. how long must i let it spin? i got a rough idea, but not too sure. who knows the answer? tell me ok? thank you! ^^ saw him played resident evil 4 last night. i got shocked by the same corpse around three times! LOLZ! so scary sia!! the sound effects was great, graphics too!! think most of the guys like to play tat ba. definately not my cup of tea.. but i enjoyed watching my bro play. i enjoy watching him plays games, cos tat's the only time i can help him. when he lost his way, i can guide him. when he forgot to do something, i can tell him. bro grows up le. no longer my dear bro, whose head is bigger than his body [mind you.. he got no down syndrome. tat was when he's three plus four] =) i really loves him alot, till now.

you know.. when guys grow up, they tend to change into someone tat you really dun know. bro is smarter than me, thus there's nothing much tat i can teach him. cos of this, for one period of time, we got nothing much to say to each other. but now, we talk like there's no tomorrow. we talked about games, about family issues, even government issues now! lolz~ =) very happy tat he will share a little bit of his problems to me. though nothing much i can do, i gives hima listening ear. tat's betta than nothing i feel =)

may God continue to bless my bro in every ways. Amen.

heheh

2006-03-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

8th march: another day passed. so fast.. it's wednesday, my third last day in school [not counting the examination]. soon, i'll have to say 'good-bye' to my polytechnic life. time, do fly..

anyway, yesterday went out with my sis. i bought a pencil case for my bro. twenty bucks if i rounded it up! so ex. dunno why recently, things sell so ex de. but neva mind.. since i promised him tat i'll buy him one. oh ya.. yesterday din managed to touch my PS two. bro occupied it for the whole day.. playing his resident evil four. wa!! got shocked so many times, especially when he was ambushed in the village. the sound effects are great! lolz~ i find it betta than final fantasy. hahahahah~ =) pretty scary, think it's not situable for faint-hearted.. like me. lolz~ >_^

then like usual, my head spinned with every turn he moved. same as kingdom hearts, felt dizzy after awhile. lolz~ cannot play games with no fixed camera le.. wa!! practically all 3-D rpg cannot play sia!! *sigh* =3

very long time neva draw le [when i meant draw, it's equal to sitting on and drawing on a piece of plain paper. there's a need to define it, cos i drew everyday on my lecture notes.. lolz~ =P]. think my drawing deproved. cousin arthur asked me to draw him a picture and i took like 30 min to draw a nice one [tore off two pieces before the final piece]. den my bro asked me to add 'death shall befall on thou who touch it'. arthur likes it, and so do his bro, aaron. so i wrote them down.. lolz~ but my writing a little too big, cos in the end, no space to write the last three words. so in the end, i only wrote, 'death shall befall on thou.' LOLZ! so scary sia!

here comes the problem, 'thou'.. = 'you' or is it 'i'? when i brought tat question up, the older cousin threw the drawing to arthur and said, 'nah, i dun wan le.' lolz!! hahahahhahaha~ so funny!! at first they snatching like crazy, den suddenly he threw to him.. hahah~ cute la. lolz~ >=D

anyway, today felt quite happy too. cos prayed to God again =) pretty glad tat He still wan me. now quite tired.. maybe cos till now, i only drank a glass of milk. heh heh heh.. (x _ x)V

aiyayayaya~

2006-03-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

7th march: i brought key to school today. everyone loves him.. hahahaha~ but shu says i'm a pervert when i told her tat key's a guy. still dun really understand why she called me tat.. anyway, i thought tat she's more pervertic when she flipped him around and looked at his butt.. lolz~ betta dun let her see this.. she might chop me or flood me with her 'pi ah ni..' lolz~ =P

'anyway, nobody know who i am.' she said tat after she read this. hahahaha~ >_^ and guess wat? she said 'pi ah~!!' LOLZ!! >=D

today quite fun. had 2 tutorials so far. both of them are presentations by my classmates. not bad la.. just a little sianz for both groups. no offense. oh ya!! i dun know tat suikoden v is out! lolz!! this time round, the main character is ger. *sigh~ * cos of this, i dun feel like buying it. hahahaha~ yea.. call me a sexist. lolz~

i completed the main quest for tales of legendia le!! 'hip hip hurray!' hahahaha~ only left the character quests to do and the problem here is tat i dun feel like doing it [cos of tat whiny shirley.. sigh~ why can't she just die.. *evil laugh* =P]. actually i'm shocked tat somebody from the walkthrough likes her. i mean.. no offense, act cute and whiny gers are out-dated!! and wat's the stupid red-roses like hairband on her damn big head? and her voice.. aarrhh!! sooo~~ irritating!!

ok.. calm down.. phew =3 by the way, i bought a new game called kingdom hearts. lolz~ all the disney and square soft de characters combine forces! lolz~!! very funny sia!! hahahahahah~ well, yesterday only played for an hour, till the part where i needed to race with riku. guess the reason? ... ... lolz~ nah.. i'm not tired, not sleepy either. i got headache. the turning of the screens whenever i walked and the jumping and practicing of spinning cuts.. ahhh..~~ my head spinned with each movement. dizzy sia!! how i hope they install this fixed camera view. betta le..

think i know why today good mood le. cos i prayed again today. =) must be God's blessing on me. hahahaha~ ^^

short haire

2006-03-06T13:43:00.000+08:00

6th march: a lot of things happened during the past few weeks. i cut my hair till damn short, had my one week holiday, met up with my long lost friends [yea.. kinda lost cos some years neva see them le], went camping at east coast [a two days one nite stay], went for chalet to stay [another two days one nite thingy], bought a new 'wheel of time' series, bought the last book for 'rave' [stupid ending.. dun really like it..], completed suikoden iv, completing another new game [tales of legendia] soon, saw final fantasy x's ending.. blah~ blah~ blah~

the sad part is tat.. i only have a week of school now. after this will be exam, den attachment for 6 weeks, den graduate.. sigh.. =( i dun like the society.. all adults sux. SUX! sUCKS!! sigh..

dun like a lot of things all of a sudden. things tat i used to like.. now no longer like them.. possessed by something ma? preharps.. or maybe i'm just seeking attention from someone. who's tat someone? i dunno.. sigh~ to be exact, it's not sure. i dun even know who i like anymore.. old le ba..

guess wat? i am determined to die at the age of 25 if i'm not married. if i have children, den 35. if i have a happy family, den 40. friends asked me why so short. my reply.. neva change.. 'life sux'. why bother to live for so long.. i dun wan to live another day.. if not for my mother, i think i'm long gone.. gone for good.

...

2006-02-16T10:12:00.000+08:00

16th february: today so cold.. anyway, got to rush project like siao. got two coming up!! ah~!! and we like kinda last minute.. my fault. cos i very disorganized, den cause my groups to be affected. =P sorry!!

remember the ger whom i quarrelled with? well.. we talked! thank you, Father! at last.. lolz~ felt so weird during the cold war.. anyway.. phew~ hahahaah.. =)

bloody valentine..

2006-02-14T10:48:00.000+08:00

14th february: a supposed great day. i was so filled with anticipation for today. it's only the beginning of the day and one word to summarize it all: sux! idiot!!! er!!!! humph!!!! like shit la!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woke up eary in the morning by my mum. hate school days, especially when your room has the closet tat contains clothes of other siblings. they'll come in, go out, come in, on the light, slam the door of the closet if they can't find the freaking clothes, cursing along the way out, forgot to off the light, den stomp in to off the light after i shouted at them, den slam my door. i'm a light sleeper. people who knew me well knows. dun even need to on the light, just by opening the door of my room, i'll be awake! erzzzz~~!!! irritating!!! >=( btw, they refer to my mother, my father, my brother and my three sisters, and sometime, my grandma!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!

now in school. just went off from my project, so-'called 'discussion'. me and members are to meet bella this morning. anyway, to cut things short, i quarrelled with one of my team members [actually neva openly agrued, or else i scared i'll scold bad words. we had cold and black-faced war]. eventually, i couldn't take it anymore, so i left a note for her tat said 'if you are trying to make me angry, WELL DONE! YOU DID IT!', and left.

it's not the first time we quarrelled, but this's certainly the worst of the worst!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PEK CHEY!!!!!!!!

lolz

2006-02-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

13th february: tomo is the day!! friendship day!! hahahahaha~ yesterday got double booster from liam. on sat, me and friends went kbox, den bugis to shop. when me and neighbour going home, she told me tat i changed a lot ever since i became a christian. i think it's a good thing. cos the bible says tat once you are a christian, God will change you. =) anyway, the point is, i was very alert though it's close to eleven. she was sleepy already. den i told her tat i was still awake cos liam smsed me a few days ago [wat i meant was, liam sms me, den i very alert for the next few days]. upon hearing this, she told me, tat so-called 'alertness' will soon die off. den i replied her, 'i'll sms him to sms me when the feeling is gone.' hahaha~

guess wat? on sunday, liam smsed me twice! haha~ double dosage, double boost! =D so today still quite cranky. lolz~ it's God's will ba.. hahahah~ anyway, dun think playing maple le.. cos got PS2!! lolz~ suikoden 4 still playing.. at the last phase le. have to say this.. sigmond sooooo..~~ handsome!!!!!!!! LOLZ!! >_^

okok le. g2g for class. jolyn!! hope you have fun in.. there!! haha~ may God bless you!!

rainy day

2006-02-10T13:50:00.000+08:00

10th february: today rained. so cold now.. cos i in e plaza. hahaha~ later gonna starts tut for june. hope it's fun! anyway, today wee neva come to school. so sad! i really liked her, both in perosn and lecturer. how i hope tat the one not here.. will be someone else. lolz~ so evil! i'm just kidding.

yesterday showed my younger sis my class photos. she said tat there's a lot of pretty gers in my class.. [lolz~ i'm honoured.. =)] den the funny part was: she saw emily, den she said, this one very 'mei' [pretty]. den after a few photo, she said, 'this one also!'. den i replied her, 'they are the same person ma!'. LOLZ!! so funny! hahaahhaha~

today she taking her o level result. all the best to ya, ya hear me?! may God bless you to have the result tat you deserved. =) anyway, got to attend class le. hope the rain will stop, or sles dun know how to get home later.. hahaha~ >_^

this is maddness

2006-02-09T10:48:00.000+08:00

9th february: just eaten my lunch-cum-breakfast, but.. still very hungry le!! ah!! i so hungry recently tat my friends asked me whether i'm expecting is it. lolz~ =P can't help it.. really very hungry..=(

anyway, today had my first presentation of the new semester! on bipolar de. i felt tat it's not a very good one, but those classmates whom i asked said ok. hmm.. maybe they dun wanna break my heart or is it really fine? watever~ it's over! ahhaahah~ >=D by the way, after hearing jolyn's calss took photos for graduation, my class took ours today. we had so much fun sia! everyone squeezed together, den i stood on a chair to let people see me [though i'm tall enough.. lolz~].. it's supposed to be informal, but after a few shots, the result: all stiff, forced smiles, sleepy eyes, no actions [not even a peace sign], blah~ blah~ but overall, it's fun. hee~ =)

my butt so big!! so sianz of looking at it. lolz~ dun ask me why i typed these sentence cos.. it's a fact! ... ... crap! i dun make sense. lolz~ anyway, i kept looking at my hip today. flat butt, with wide hip.. ah~!! wat can be worse than this! hopefully.. when i grow up [in fact, i'm grown up ke.. hahaha~], my butt will be smaller. ... ... ... ok.. i admit.. i'm cheating myself! it's my iliac crest tat's big! another word, it's bones we are talking about! how to make it smaller other than smashing the bones, file it.. aiyoz~ so sad!

by the way.. dun know whether i've said this before, but i felt blessed yesterday and today! haha~ thanks to God's mercy and grace! recently did something quite evil.. i did confessed to God. He forgiven me le ba.. tat's why i in very good mood recently! hahaha~ and everything i do went on smoothly. thank you, Father!

people, be it you are christians or not, when you felt real gulity, or sad, or lost, damn depressed, hopleless, or any other negative feelings in you, talk to God or Lord Jesus. trust me.. after you confess and ask for forgiveness [if u know you did something >=/], or told Him about your feelings and thoughts, ask for His will to be done, and you'll feel great! ahahah~ sometime even betta, God came to your rescue before you asked Him for help! like to share this.

once, in year one i think. i was sooo..~ depressed.. cos i felt tat no one liked me, and no one will ever love me so much tat he will sacrifice himself for me. so i cried over tat matter, and nearly.. [i meant it.. nearly..] jumpped down from my flat. but tat nite [the nite i decided to jump], i received a sms from my friend [forgot who le.. lolz~]. it said something like, do you feel lost? depressed? do you know tat you're loved? do you know tat there's someone who gives up His life for you cos He really loves you? i really loves you. sender: Jesus Christ.

tell you.. when i saw tat sms, it really touched me tat i cried so hard on it. ever since, i decided to baptise and really be a christian. it's pretty nice to know tat, even though you are nobody [even to yourself, you feel tat you sux, you are the worst~], you are somebody to HIm. He's Son of God. imagine yourself holding a place in the heart of someone so.. great, mercy, gentle.. kind and passionate.. the best part, no matter how busy He is, He'll hear you. He'll will come at the right time tat will really touched you. He'll always be there for you, be it as an advisor, listener, partner. nice rite? hee~ =)

aiyozzz~~

2006-02-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

7th february: in school again~ wore a black skirt tat i bought for new year. and guess wat? the first 2 friends tat i saw asked me wehther i bought it from a certain shop. but the problem is, i dun even know the name of the shop and the brand of the skirt. lolz~ wat a shopper.. =P

today in a pretty good mood, cos i felt tat God is blessing me. hahahaha~ thank you, Father! dunno who told me tat, i worked according to my mood, or, my mood controls me. hmmm.. dun know whether is it good or not? anyway, this morning received a sms from both my sis and my teacher tat says tat a child is needing o- blood. udn know whether true or not de, so i deleted it. sigh~ dun ask me why i didn't spread the news, cos i dun even know the reason for me deleting it away =(

today i went to the photocopy auntie there to print something. one whole stack of notes sia! and i need to make 5 copies. lolz~ anwyay, me and my friends waited for 30 minutes. guess the result of the printing. 1/4 of each page is blank! den we told the auntie and she replied, 'no choice lor.. since you all wan today, so take it or leave it.'

'wat the..' i thought, but didn't say it in front of her. so pretty 'cool-ly' [is there such a word? lolz~], i told her tat wei'll take it tomo. den you know wat she did? she just threw the stack of notes [around 500 pieces] to the side! practically threw it!! i can't believe my eyes sia! it's like, we wasted 30 min and so many pieces of papers. oh ya! and dun know how much ink! all this can be prevented only if she saw the first copy tat was printed by tat printer. sigh~!! >=(

forget it.. dun let this thing spoil my mood. anyway, i received a sms from liam! hahaha~ very long time neva talk to him le. haahah~ may God bless you, liam!! =)

hihiz

2006-02-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

3rd february: wa~ juz eaten my lunch cum breakfast. hahaah~ recharged at last! yesterday slept at ten pm. but still feel very tired.. dunno why.. hmm =( today supposed to meet joyn and kavi to school, but i overslept! sorry kavi! sorry jolyn!!

today hardly talk to my classmates.. cos, i dunno. hahahahah~ lame shit. anyway, now doing project. lolz~ not focusing on it. hahaha~ =P hope today will be a fun day!

happy new year!

2006-02-01T10:05:00.000+08:00

1st february: happy chinese new year to all! =) time passes so fast.. it's yet... another new year.. so boring sia!! lolz~ i neva like new year cos.. i dun like people who come our house for the celebration. imagine seeing so many people who neva fails to criticize your small little living room and stuffy air in every rooms. very sianz rite? dun understand why they kept complaining so much. having a roof over the head for living is great enough, and also, they neva think de le.. there's like 22 people in a 4-room flat. not stuffy den got problem sia!! >=/ anyway, put all those people behind.

oh ya.. i thought today is monday. guess wat? lolz~ >=D i brought monday's lecture notes, and came school at 10. the worse part was tat, my tut class starts at 9am!! nightmare!! ahhh~~... 'my 3 years in school with 100% attendance.. is.. GONE!' was wat i'm thinking. and guess wat again? hee~ >=D when i reached school, i called my friends to meet for early lunch. they told me tat today's tut is cancelled!! hahahahahaha~!! >=) so happy!!! LOLZ!! must thank God for this!! thank you, Father!! hahahahhaha~~.. =D

lolz.. btw, i bought a ps2 at last.. yes!! since last year january, i always dream of having one.. and i got it! hee~ thank you father again! =) so for the past 4 days [sat to tue], i played suikoden iv from morning 10 plus to morning [?! yup.. a.m.] 4 plus.. lolz~ so shiok! so only have 3 hours of sleep.. very sleepy now.. lolz! serve me rite! hahahahaha~ >=)

p.s.: xiao bin bin, sorry for not replying your msg on the taggy. i'm using my school's computer, so access to tat link is denied. anything, please sms me! thanks lotz! =D

sicko~

2006-01-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

18th january: another pathetic day.. yesterday quarrelled with her again. sicko!! so old already still so childish.. she changed the com's password.. resulting in me cannot play the com!! ah!! so sad~!! my maple!!

anyway, i took my revenge by deleting the whole game file. hahahahaah~ evil sia.. i told my friend about it and she said both of us are childish! lolz! =) cannot stand her liao.. yesterday cried over the phone when i complained to my mother.. pms? lolz~ i dun know..

today in school, my first tut, we discussed about marriage contract. 'how many children you wanna have?' was the question. my answer: 'six'. LOLZ!! my classmates were like shocked and the lecturer too. den she patted my back and said, 'all the best.' hee~ so weird ma? i dun find it.. hahaha~ ^^

today is supposed to be a good day. i was caught in a jam like like 10-15 min, causing me to be slightly late for class. but luckily, the lecturer herself was late too =P going to catch a movie today. hope it's nice and may God bless my day. =)

happy new year..?

2006-01-16T13:01:00.000+08:00

16th january: is it new year.. yet? how come i dun even notice? lolz~ anyway, last year.. hmmm.. wat did i did? seriously.. i dun even rememeber anything about anything. haha.. 'lau' [old] le.. or dementia? hmmm.. weird? >=/

ok.. this year.. wat i wanna achieve? let's see. i wanna be slim [hard to go down~~ though]. den i wanna make new friends. den i also wanna have better memory. i wanna be 'guai guai' [obedient, not weird weird]..

aiyoz.. dun even know wat i typing. the last attachment must have changed me unknowingly. i felt cranky, especially at night. i felt sleepy, tat's in the day, and i can't fall asleep at night. sigh~ becoming like owl le ma? sigh~ >=(

very long time neva update bloggy le. dun know wat to say. lolz~ anyway, maplestory! i changed my hairstyle. my friends were like shocked, my bro said 'funny lor', my cousins said 'lol', and my papa said 'heng hao kan' [very nice!]. i quite like the new haircut btw. like my real hairstyle, just tat not as long. hahaha~ ^^ next time, i might upload the pic.. hee~ =)

yesterday, played half-way, my stupid elder sis wanna use com for projects. said wat, 'i got two projects lor!! last minute the lecturer email me de!!! quick le!!!!!!'. i thought 'she was just exaggerating', anyway, she folded her arms and stood beside me, with popped out eyes [like goldfish, if she dun know, she already look like one without having to do so.. lolz~ =P], opened legs, screaming at the same time.

'like usual, ah ger gonna explode soon..', i stood up and gave up my seat. den she asked my to take the extra chairs out, and i told her, 'not i take in one LOR!', den i went out of the room. lolz~ very long time i neva shout le, anyway, very 'shiok' after that =) so after tat, i kept going into the room to 'spotcheck' her. and guess wat? I AM RIGHT!! after less than an hour, i caught her playing maplestory!! wat project?! shit her la!~! i was soooo~!!! angry with her sia!! anyway, i told her [sacarstically], 'you wan to play just say la! dun need to lie de.. projects somemore.. wow!! projects need to on maple de ah?' den i walked out.

dun understand why some people behaved in certain ways, especially my own sis. whatever she did and believed in, she's always right. no wrongs and faults in her de. she so bloodly prefect!! so BLOODLY PREFECT!! ya la ya la.. i'm always wrong, she know more than me.. she's the one studying health and disease processes.. though i am the real one doing that. she know everything about the tubercolosis, hiv, hepatitis la.. not me.. NOT me~ anything wrong, dun find me la! she so smart!! so damn bloodly SMART! fever dun find me la! cold and cuts dun find me la! so smart, so full of commone sense rite? she's the law in the house. whenever someone picked a quarrel, she always play a part in debating [though most of the things she said are irrational, inlogical, incoherent]. sigh~!! >=( selfish and damn high self-esteem, making-ownself-look-like-a-fool character, all can be found in her! my own dear~ big, biG elder sis!! humph!!

again?!

2005-11-29T19:57:00.000+08:00

29th november: another day tat maple is going under maintenance.. sigh!! so long!! and kept prolonging the promised time.. i rather they give us a longer time to expect and they will managed to accomplish the necessary tasks.

sigh~ dunno wat to do sia.. attachment next week and yet i.. ah~~ haven't really enjoy my holidays sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hate the stupid maintenance.. =P

will he always be in my heart?

2005-11-25T15:41:00.000+08:00

25th november: he. will he ever know this secret tat he's a girl's standard whenever she's judging a guy? does he ever know tat when it's valentine the next day, a girl wanted soooo~ much tat he might call and ask her out, or even give her something as a gift of friendhip? should he ever be sad and wants a listening ear, a girl dun mind to stay with him and hear all his complaints. when will he ever know tat there's a girl who is waiting.. and waiting.. and waiting for him.. to open his golden mouth, to say the precious, sweet, the most wonderful ever created three words... will he find out how grateful the girl is whenever he comes to her during her 'out-casted' time?

sigh.. will he always be in her heart? i wonder.. i wonder..

i've watched it. do you?

2005-11-23T16:59:00.001+08:00

23rd november: just watched harry potter today. very nice!! though really suffered from deep vein thrombosis. lolz~ =P sat there for like 2 hours 45 min. so many people watched today! thought so long already.. most of the fans had really watched it, but dunno why.. lolz~ =D

anyway.. just started on maple sea this week. guess wat? due to God's blessing.. i'm level 18! ^^ quite fast i feel. heh.. during the last few weeks, i sort of last touch with God. but thank to God, and praise the Lord, when i went to church last sunday [many many days didn't go le.. haha.. =P], the sharing touched me =) and now, i'm back to Him again! now trying hard not to lose touch with him anymore. hahaha~ may God please help me! =D

2005-10-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

~Solitary Angel~

You like to be alone. Away from people you have
time to your self, and time to think things
over. You hate crowds, the heat, the
confinitey, you want open space, a way to let
go to be free. Freedom is truly what you seek.
Freedom is something gained, never to be let go
of. But alos something to share.
Weapon:Katana
" Freedom, a gift of the greatest
value...wat i crave... wat i need"

lolz.. i thought i'll be the same as my 'SCA' friend~!!

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another day..

2005-10-18T12:06:00.000+08:00

18th october: another day in school. soon, the first semester will be over le..hahah~ at last [cos i wan holiday!!].. lolz~ crazy le.. it's like so 'very de fast'!! time passes by without me knowing it did. exam next week, but i just started on one topic, and tat module haven't even finished yet.. =P

today came to school with my 'SCA' friend [doubt you all know the meaning.. lolz~]. we had a pleasant bus ride to school, like usual, talking all the way [haha.. sometime i really wonder, where does women find the energy and inspirations to talk]. den, we came to talk about a friend.. a secondary school friend whom i'm really disappointed with. she changed a lot, at least more 'ai mei' [likes to doll up, or vain if you prefer]. cannot stand her so-called 'act cute' behaviour, her 'whiny' voice, her 'i-dun-wanna-lose-to-you' attitude.. blah~ blah~ >=( pretty sad tat we hardly communicate anymore cos we used to be, wat others see us to be, very good friend. sigh~ =3 poly life really can change someone's personality 360 degrees.

den i ask my 'SCA' friend, 'am i backstabbing her?' her reply was, 'a bit.' frankly speaking.. i know it's not just 'a bit', but 'you are'. i couldn't.. vent out [?] my displeasure on her directly [cos she got a lot of friends. if i did, they all will think tat i'm the bad guy.. lolz~ preharps i am~ the bad one.. =P], and i told her before about 'why i dun like you' topic for like.. twice? i know she still remember, but she dun really care? hmm.. dunno la. wait till exam over, den i will tell her again.

i missed liam.. weird to say so rite? this type of thing.. when you have it, you dun treasure. once you lose it, you start to cry.. sigh =3 life so weird! till now.. 19 le.. still dun understand wat's life truly is. i dun have a goal in life. only know tat when my time is up, it's time to enjoy another life.. this time, the time will not, neva will, be up. hahahaha~ =) a promise made by God >_^ [ps.. *salvation*!!]

i miss the time when we used to chat in fairyland, chat through friendster, through messenger and now.. through handphone. dunno when.. will we.. be chatting.. face to face! hahaha~ think tat moment may be the most memorable de ba. the first guy to ***.. lolz~ [not saying!! =P]

anyway, about the friends in the previous two entries, we are stilll having cold war. 3 days le. like wat i say, unless she talked to me, i won't speak, even a 'hello' to her. hoohooho~ >=) very bad rite? hopefully can talk agian, cos exam's coming [somehow will stress me a little.. lolz~]

it's over..

2005-10-17T09:54:00.000+08:00

17th october: at last.. it's over.. the 'project nightmare' is finally over le!! hahahaah~ =) so happy.. can sleep at ease now [been losing sleep recently].

about the friends tat i mentioned in the previous entery, today, we hardly talk. very bad rite? i can see tat the two good friends are angry with me, but i dun care cos it's they fault! year three already.. i can't believe tat she told me that she dun know how to do summary. so..arrhh~!! >=/ and the other one, ask her to give me her summary, in the end give me irrelevant things tat i need to re-do it. like purposely one lor! [i know i very revengeful de.. so i'm trying hard to control myself from doing anything.. i mean it.. ANYTHING to THEM!! humph!! >=(] first time do project until so angry!!

hopefully we will talk one day cos next semster, we will be in the same group again. frankly speaking, i dun wan lor [only got 2 singaporeans in my group and the majority are from.. ***, no say for us, and i'm quite sick of working with the same type of people]! but the rest of my classmates always throw those people they dun wan to my group! anyone thought of how my group felt?!! not tat i'm angry tat they put them to my group, but the rest of the groups dun wanna the so-called 'extras' to be in theirs cos they felt uncomfortable working with new faces! so wat if you can get an 'a' for every projects [provided you only work with your 'buddies' everytime]? next time you all will be rarely working with each other ma! how if you can't get use to them?! sigh~ =3

ok. i confess tat most of the above is a mixture of 'how-i-really-feels' and 'i'm-very-upset-and-disappointed-with-my-friends', maybe partly of 'anger-and-envy' [tat some of the gangs like.. happier?]. sigh =3

aiyo >_
2005-10-14T13:44:00.000+08:00
14th october: sigh.. =3 now in e plaza again.. doing the stupid essay for the final year project. 1,500 words le!! most the students here dun have a strong english foundation [for most of us, tat's the reason why we ended in here.. lolz~] and yet.. sigh =3 a little unhappy with my group members. dunno why le..

yesterday write the essay till one plus two [a.m. =_= at least now, they are sitting together, cracking their brain to form the most 'prefect' sentence with the given information.. and i'm sitting at one side, typing this.. hoohoohoo~ >=)

dun intend to teach or help them unless they ask me. ahahaha~!! >=D very bad rite? who ask them.. i wrote the beginning myself, and the did the 'so-called' easy job. heh~ heh~ >_^

but God.. forgive me for being selfish and revengeful.. i can't let go Father. help me~!

how i wish..

2005-10-13T13:45:00.000+08:00

13th october: is it true tat gers day~dream more than guys?? in the sense tat, gers believe and crave for a fairytale ending in their life, whereas guys [obviously more practical], know tat there is no such ending.

i used to tell my bro tat i wanted to marry to a guy, who is willing to protect when i am in danger, be there for me when i needs a shoulder, hugs me when i feel lonely, and loves me like i'm the only person in this world.. =) very normal for a ger, cos tat's wat we wanted. a guy who is willing to care and love us in anyway.. haha~ >_^ but guess wat my bro told me?

'aiya.. this thing won't happen de. no one can be with a person always, cos one day, he/she will get sick of the other party de. also, if the guy really like the ger, he will work very hard to please her.. financially usually. so like tat, how can he be with her always if he needs to work? haven't finish.. nowadays, no love is everlasting de.'

interesting conclusion tat he had told me. to some certain extend, i agree with him. if the guy really likes you, he will try to provide for your needs.. be it if you wanna have a new dress, or even a diamond ring, if possible, he will try to get it for you. haahaha.. dunno if the guys are as rich as i thought.. lolz~ =P

anyway, i wrote this article just for fun. lolz!! =) no offense..

sigh =3

2005-10-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

12th october: mother says.. 'if you sigh once, you will have an extra winkle on your forehead in your later life'. i dun believe cos all people will have winkles when you are old cos your skin loses it's elascity. i can't help it.

recently kept having mood swings [bipolar ma? lolz.. hope not!! =P]. i felt inferior nowadays. sometimes felt tat i'm ugly, sometimes fat, and sometimes felt tat i hated myself for who i am. but, likewise, somedays i would feel confident, somedays feel very pretty, sometimes even feel like 'firlting'. sigh~ =3 dun know which one is the 'me' tat i am.

now is the 'anti-climax' mood. sigh~ =3 again.. ah~~ hate it!! =( how??!! i hated myself for being like this!! AH!!!!!!! going out of control soon... sigh.. =3

tiring..

2005-10-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

10th october: today only sleep for 4 hours.. so sleepy.. headache, dizzy and short attention span sia.. sigh~ =3

time passes so fast. now is october already.. going to graduate soon.. sigh~ =3 i really dun think tat i'm fit to be a nurse yet. though i had passed all my exam [so far], i still dun think tat i qualify to be one.. ... ... ... ...

yesterday my cousiins came to my house. we took some pics.. lolz~ tat's so funny!! i'll upload it in friendster is i can find my connecter [between the camera and the com one.. lolz.. can't believe it tat i lost it.. =P]. exam coming so soon!! two weeks later will be my death day. haha.. haven't even started revising for it. dun know will pass not.. lolz..

anyway, now in e-plaza. waiting for start of bernard's class. well, been looking quite forward for it.. cos he's pretty funny, without.. lolz.. [i'm not telling..].

mood has been much better since i last wrote in. been pretty happy recently.. hahaha~ =)

btw, anyone watched the taiwan drama 'the rose' before? i quite like it [actually only like one character in tat show.. hee~]. i like the youngest brother, though he's sarcastic, and.. is a gay.. LOLZ!! neva thought i will like a gay!! especially he's a person with long hair.. real life!!! so shock!! his hair is like over shoulder-length.. super long for a guy rite? agree not? but nonetheless, he's quite good-looking la.. i like his side view. haha.. overall, dun like the eldest brother in the show. where got a guy so 'love-sicken' tat he actually go and eat flowers de!! disgusting!! but.. it's just a show.. luckily not real one.. lolz..

oh yea, God.. thanks for the encouragement when i'm down. thanks for reminding me tat You are always there for me, and thz for remaining faithful though i lost track of faith a while ago. thank you, Father! =)

stressed??

2005-10-04T10:27:00.000+08:00

4th october: life isn't going well for me nowadays.. kept having a feeling of sadness [or depression] whenever i do anything. the best part, this attutide make me dun feel like doing anything, and today i'm having my gerontology exam. sigh~

kept having insomina and chest pain, and headache too. dun know wat's going on within me, but i hope tat everything will go on well after today. but sad to say, i'm not doing well in friendship too. been comparing myself with them recently, especially with those tat i know tat i can neva be like them. ... ... ... dun tell me.. i still have identity crsis? =( hope not.. nineteen already.. coming to adulthood soon.. sigh..

or is it lol [lack of love]? i know my family loved me and so do God, but sometime i'm so stuborn tat i dun wanna see tat they do. weird rite? dun like it, but there's nothing i can do. ah!!! feel like.. sigh.. sinnful thoughts again.. =(

tried calling my closer friends to talk, but one sleeping, another not home. den i tried calling the friend who always tell me tat she will be there for me when i needs someone to talk to, but.. i dun know wat to tell her cos.. very long neva speak to her, and she's very busy with guys [surrounding her] and her own family problems. sigh.. now den i know tat friendship will not last if contact with the person is not consistent =P hate hate hate hate hate!!

He did it again!

2005-09-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

29 september: long time no see me liao.. as in here.. ahaha~ pai sei. pretty busy and lazy to update my blog. lolz~ anyway.. HE did it again!! hahaha!! today i had my practical assessment. like usual, some of my classmates failed. is it a trend or wat? but whenever people failed, rumours about the teachers/assessors being baised, having a 'cursed' scenerio, a very-bad-luck spot in the room, unlucky day, the 'group tat bound to fail'... blah~ blah~ blah~ all came out of nowhere! is it tat they [refering to the people who failed] very unhappy/upset with the outcome, tat's why they spread those 'maybe' rumours.. or are they just the truth? >_<>

on moday, 2 out of 5 failed. tuesday, 2 out of 5 failed. wednesday off day. and today.. thursday, 4 are being assessed.. >=/ you guess how many failed? 'well.. hmm.. is it.. 2 out of 4?' if your answer is tat, well, congrats!! you are WRONG! hahahah!!! we all passed!! lolz! ^^ i prayed before the start of the exam. though we didn't get the scenerio tat we wanted [but instead the ones tat we were most unsure of], we passed!! hee!!!! cos... cos.. GOD did it!! haha!! it's not the first time tat i had asked Him to help us, and.. this time round, i told Him, 'Father, may your will be done. be it good or bad, but help us to get over it if it's bad.' and kindly, He blessed us with a 'pass'. LOLZ!! >=D

very bad of me to boast now.. cos still got people failed. but i'm saying this not because i wanna boast about how smart we are, but to proved to people who are timid, unsure, helpless and/or afraid of the result/outcome, tat, when you pray to the LORD, believe HE will give you, and you will have it [of cos la.. good purpose den HE will give you]. or like my case, i asked Him to have His will to be done. by doing so, despite the outcome, you will still very happy and glad tat God has helped you in one way or another!

but really Father in heaven.. thank you for helping us to pass our practical. thank you for showing me the power of prayers!! heh~ =)

pRoJEcT maDdnEsS

2005-09-15T09:05:00.000+08:00

11th september: wa.. rushing projects like siao sia nowadays.. sigh!! slept so late recently.. =( just hope tat thie period of time can pass quickly.. but after pprojects will be exams sia.. dunno whether i prepared for them not..

Do anything also no hit. everyday also very tired. no mood to do anything. stressed up? or drained out? either one, i just know tat i can be very irritated if i need to repeat myself for more than twice. =P i feel tat it's not a good excuse to be rude, but can't help it most of the times.

yesterday talked to my bro and younger sis for like 2 hours? we shared a lot of jokes.. [those very lame one la..], many ghost stories [some say till our hair stands sia.. lolz..], gossips.. blah~ blah~ it's very rare for us to spend time together and talk our hearts out cos i usually sleep early or they need to do homework. but like wat the saying says, 'there's a price to pay in everything you do'. i couldn't wake up this morning. lolz.. =P

so cold.. T_T

2005-09-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

12th september: 7th sep was my baby cousin and bro's birthday. she's 4 this year already.. so fast!! i can still remember the day when she's still in her mother's tummy.. think i old le.. seems to feel tat time travels faster and faster without waiting for me =P my bro's 17 now. hope he can be more matured, and stops his stupid 'toy sniffing' activities [if he sees this, he might..kill me? heh.. =)]. i bought him 3 shirts as his present, but doubt he likes any [is it tat guy dun show their emotions much during teenage stage? >=/]. as for my baby cousin, i intend to buy her a barney shirt [lolz!! barney.. hi-five and spiderman are her favourites ^^ children nowadays..].

come to think of it, when i was her age, i only remember 'tom and jerry' as my favourite cartoon. and the 'beep-beep' ostrich tat ran very fast, with her good friend, a wolf who-wanna-eat-her. when i'm older, i came to know 'captain planent' [lolz.. always had a good impression on the guy with the fire ring.. >=)] and 'little lulu'. den older a little bit more, 'dragonball' started to be quite popular in my house, den 'power rangers', den 'digimon version 1', followed by 'slam dunk', den 'one piece', blah~ blah~... and now, it's movies tat we watched more than cartoons. sigh.. missed the good, old days when i'm still a innocent, cheeky brat.. haha~ =D

by the way, i watched the movie 'one more chance' by jack neo. wow!! it's so touching!! i neva expect him to come out with such a comdey, but at the same time, can moved people to tears [compared to 'i do, i do', this one is 500% better!! hahaha.. >_^]. i cried over the 'ah hui' -- 'hui ge' acting de -- when he's with the mother. it's very nice! good for young and old i feel. strongly recommended by verna!! heh.. =P

holidayz!! =)

2005-08-30T10:07:00.000+08:00

30th august: i'm enjoying my one week holiday at the time being, but today need to go to school for project discussion. so sianz sia!

anyway, my neoquest will be completed by tomo!! heh~ power rite? hahahaah~ =) started playing.. i think.. since the beginning of the year ba. so long liao le. no time to continue to play until now.. also no mood to play la.. ahaha~ yesterday played for very long hours, from morning 11:30 am to 11:00 pm. oh ya.. for your information, the day before yesterday, i played for 8:30 am to 3:10 am. haha.. very game manic..

so far so good! had been enjoying the long hours of sleep, and having fun with my dear neopets. nowadays neva play priston tale le. cos a little sick of it. wow.. i just noticed how 'san fen zhong re duo' i am. but i dun care.. haha~

oh ya.. recently i watched some show on arts central. the first one is 'child of our time 2000'. it's very interesting and educative for a parent-to-be. bascially i watched it cos if i ever get pregnant [tat's if i got married also la.. =P], at least i know how to behave myself so tat i can have a clever and obedient child next time. so far so good. i watched it with my siblings, so far all of them liked the show as i do. haha.. =)

also, there's another show rite after it. it's an anmie, called 'peacemaker kurgane'. wa!!! tell you all ah.. it's the second time i watched and followed a animated series. the first one was 'digimon version 1'. tell you all.. i fell in love with souji okita in tat show.. ahhahaa~ >=D he's so~~ sweet and cute!! and cheerful too! oh ya.. he's gentle too! er.. maybe a little too gentle le [a little sissy la..] =P at first i thought he's O+, until i looked down, and noticed a flat chest. den i knew tat he's <-O.

dun like him at first cos, really!!, very sissy/girly, especially when he's with hijikama [i think it's spelt like tat ba.. haha..]. the way he talked to people also like tat.. a little whiny. but after 2 episoides, i started to like.. no no.. it's LOVE him. hahahaha~!!! like 'siao' of him already la.. lolz.. he's really very nice.. especially.. when tetsu is down, he's always there for him. very nice friend rite? =)

from him, i somehow see tat, sometimes, a little sissy guy can be real 'nice'. hahaha.. but i dun like sissy guy in real life!! =P haha.. contradicting sia. oh yea.. i just noticed tat my blog is full of 'singlish' sia.. haha.. pai sei.. opps! lolz.. =)

yawn ..sleepy.. yawn

2005-08-22T11:22:00.000+08:00

22nd august: today is a cool day. not a bad day to start with. wake up at 5 plus am this morning.. now pretty tired [cos slept quite late.. at around 1 or 2 plus ba..] sigh~ think i'm suffering from sleeping disorder. nowadays kept having nightmares. all about zombies one somemore. haha~ maybe cos too excited, wanna watch 'the land of the dead' ba.. =P

watever is the cause, i couldn't get to sleep like usual. heh.. dunno why also. stressed ma? dun think so leh. projects like over le, quite carefree at home too. watever.. lolz~

yesterday, me and jolyn talked about peer problems. i thought i was the only one who would be irritated very easily by people who wanna put me down, or let me feel tat i'm more inferior than her. but thank God! He sent jolyn to talk to me, to tell me tat it's human nature (?). hahaha~ den i remembered we said tat it's sinful, either way la [as in, puting ppl down or being angry with the offender].

bible always say 'to forgive and forget'. easy say than do! ah~~ =( so hard.. but i wanna be someone who God will praise. lolz~ dun even know wat i writing.. thin too tired le ba.. hahahaha =)

the tenth..

2005-08-19T12:50:00.000+08:00

19th august: very long neva update my blog le.. think it's going to be dead soon.. haha~ so sad. dun even have time to update it regularly.. =P anyway, tamogotchi.. my tamogotchi is 2 months old!! wow~!! neva thought tat i'll play it till so long!! haha~ it's the tenth generation already, and guess wat? it's the first time i named my pet with a human name.. haha~ [cos i named the previous with things related to nature, like rain, wind, stone.. blah~ blah~] i named him.. yea.. him.. <-O lolz~

issac. tat's the name. nice rite? haha~ and issac had been a very good boy. neva got poison except during infantile. hee~ and issac neva make much noises too!! hahahaha~ very guai. =) tat name suddenly pop up in my heart after i read the bible. so.. he's special. =)

by the way, today got post-operative presentation. dun think tat we will be doing well, so i neva prepare much. haha~ just hope tat things will go on smoothly. oh ya!! just wanna share about a paragraph in the bible. here goes:

'Love is patient and kind. It is not jealous, not concited and proud. Love is not ill-mannered, not selfish, not irritable. It does not have a record of wrongs. Love is unhappy with evil, but happy with the truth.' [i cor 13:4-6]

i love tat paragraph!! very nice sia!! ahahha~ actually still got somemore de, but forgot le. heh~ =P so people, read tat whole chapter. very nice for it touches my heart. =) ok la. dun feel like writing le. may Father bless all who passby this blog.. lolz~

time still goes on.. and on.. and on..

2005-08-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

4th august: long time no update blog.. haha~ pai sei sia! >_O anyway.. so many things happened unto me recently. my practical and theory for hs 2054 is over, my first project presentation is over, my first time got drenched on my way home [ i meant it.. dreached!! inside out.. lolz~], my baptisim class is over, i bapitzed at last, neva been to church for 4 weeks le..

wa.. really many many things happened. dun know which one to talk about today. shall i talked about the practical test? ok ba. ^^ tat day was 1st august. i was so frightened of the test tat i couldn't sleep the nite before, and the best part.. i suffered consitpation. lolz~!! =) when i reached school [at 7:30am], i was the first to reach. so i sat down and waited for my friends' arrival. but guessed wat? none of those familiar faces arrived until 7:50am!! btw, exam starts at 8 am. wa!! i was so scared sia!! thought i came wrong time! haha~ >_^!!

me and my classmate thought tat we were the first two to go in, but dunno why, other group's people went in first. at tat time, then we knew tat they go according to our tutorial group [i'm 6]. and the best part, the other groups with us were group 1 and 3. lolz!! =D so funny sia!! we were like stunt! why the heck did we came so early for?! ahaha~ ^^

while waiting for our turn, i got stomache. when it was soon my turn, i couldn't take it anymore, i rushed to the toilet to do 'something'. the funny part: it just won't come out! lolz!! >=D so angry, but felt like crying too.. [cos tummy really pain]. den i strated praying in the toilet. i said, 'Father, please grant me with the peace in my heart, peace in my mind..' and guessed wat?

lolz~ it came out!! hahahaha~ >_^V so happy sia!! haha~ but really thank God. if not for Him, i might fail my test. He calmed me down and blessed me with a powerful, kind assessor. hahaha~ thank God again!! =)

so sianz..

2005-07-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

15th july: now in e plaza again.. doing some research but nothing had been found for the past 30 minutes!! ah~!!! so sianz!! anyway, just noticed tat no one visit my blog like tat.. so sad.. =(

oh ya.. my tamagotchi lives up to the 6th generation already!! hahaah~ and guess wat? i got a male at last!! heh~ =) intending to call him 'xun' or 'tear' or 'yue'. dunno which one better.. only left one day to decide on this.. hmm... >_O

school's not bad at all.got projects, got lectures, got practicals, and even tutorials. all of them are alrite, except maybe the tutorial. the teachers are quite boring.. and most of them kept repeating themselves.

anyway, yesterday, when i was going home, it started raining quite heavily. so i ended up taking a train to ang mo kio, rather than like usual, walking to the interchange. when i reached there, guess wat? ang mo kio is like, so dry lor!!! lolz~ if only i knew earlier, i should have walked there instead.. can save my 63 cents [?]. recently quite tired. even if i had enough sleep, i still felt tired. if my friend see this, she definately will say tat i old liao le. haha~ but luckily she dun even bother to come to my blog, no matter how many times i had reminded her of this.. sigh~

may God bless me with the energy for the rest of today!! =)

wat a day!

2005-07-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

12th july: went to school with jolyn today. we talked throughout the whole journey. long time neva talk to her le. glad tat she's still fine.. =)

i was thinking of my primary school friend this morning. thinking about the time we spent together, be it gossiping, joking around, singing, cooking, plain chatting, playing, hitting each other, pulling one's pony tail.. aww... so nice.. =) lolz~ i really enjoyed the time we spent together, especially when we were at the neighbourhood macdonald, where we can meet at 3pm and leave tat place at 11pm. ahaha~ =D den, the ones who stayed close to each other will walk home together [along the way, we'll still talk about the days when we were little brats.. lolz~].

anyway, when i was waiting for my bus to school, one of my primary school friend, ivy tapped my shoulder. hahaha~ den we chatted for awhile cos her bus arrived. thank God for blessing me to be able to see her. thanks Lord! ^_<

oh ya.. yesterday, i only had 4 hours of sleep. the best part, the next sleep i had was 20 hours later!! ahh!! very tired sia! but i'm a good ger. lolz~ when i reached home from school yesterday, i started doing my project. den i went out to meet my elder sis to buy her shoes. after we reached home, i did my research again. heh~ neva thought tat i can be so hardworking. haha~ ^^

yellow~

2005-07-11T13:15:00.000+08:00

11th july: today i wore a yellow polo tee to school, of cos, with a skirt =) though i like bright colours, idun behave like one cheerful fellow. i'm usually dull and moody.. lolz~ but dunno why, i really like bright colours, especially for my shirts!! hee~

yesterday went to church. the devotion part was nice! lolz.. i like the speaker especially. she's a not very tall lady, but with big voice. she spoke, and most of the speeches touched my heart! hahaha~ thanks Father, for blessing me with a wonderful time in the church!! ^^

i just had my tutorial by the way.. and tat bernard lian.. sigh~ not to say tat he teach not good or wat, but the topic itself was boring!! so now felt a little sleepy.. =P the next class starts at 3pm.. got 2 solid hour de break le!! dunno wat to do later.. cms cannot play.. i mean.. cannot study.. sigh~

i played priston tale on saturday. very fun!! ahahah~ i made a good friend call 'princess -something-'. very nice ger.. [i think it's ger.. lolz~] ^^ with her around, i level up 3 levels!! hahaah~ and i completed my rank up quest for my mechancian.. lolz!!!! so happy!! and my mage.. is level 30!! heh~ very proud of my achievement. haha~ =D thank God!! thank God!! ahahahaha~

first week in school

2005-07-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

8th july: so fast.. first week in school is coming to an end. sigh~ and i felt tat i didn't learn anything of any importance. the only thing i learnt is, more and more projects are coming up my way!! hahahaah~ so excited! can do project at last. long time no do le, a little bit off hand while we were doing the discussion. hmm.. hope we can get back the feel of handling project, like last semester.. hee~ =)

anyway, yesterday quarrelled with my sis. i wanted to call one of my best friend to talk, but suddenly i got a feeling tat she won't really care about this.. cos she always complain tat she's someone who is of 'poor life' -- pathetic life -- and always lead you one whole round to tell you tat. she's quite a nice friend actually, but sometime, i got a little fed up with her. watever thing she did, she always come up with an excuse if she didn't do well. why dun she just accept her failure, but instead, denying the fact tat she can't do it well. =( i dun like to say bad things about her.. cos she's really someone special to me. i always wanted to tell her this, but i fear tat our friendship will be at risk, and i really like her alot!

people alway say tat if someone keep too much things to herself, one day, she might just burst [i think it means go mad ba.. hmm..]. i quite agree with them. tat's why i wrote this bloggie at the first place. haha~ >_^ i feel tat when i grow older, lesser people wanna listen to me. they rather spend time with their 'good-oppsite-gender-friend' than to me. sigh~ then whenever i see them, the first question they ask will be, 'so how? you got boyfriend le ma? >=D'. frankly speaking, i can always fake up one and make the lie so well tat they won't know about it, but i dun like to lie about these things. ah!! how i hope tat they can know, not everyone wanna get married. lolz~ i mean, not everyone is so desperate for 'boyfriend's favour'!! heh.. ^^

lolz.. my topic for today like kinda no linkage with the above paragraph. haha~ =) anyway, i just notice, dunno from when onwards, the topic tat we shared among ourselves are always the same ones. like: 'my/your boyfriend this.. my/your boyfriend tat..', 'so how? got boyfriend le ma?', 'so how's you and your boyfriend?', 'you know wat? the guy did this to me..', 'hey! tat guy is so cute.. agree not?' ... blah~ blah~ blah~

familiar to some, rite? but i really dun care wat you did with your guy, or wat he did to you. please care more for your friend!! it sounds like i'm being jealous.. but no! i'm not! i'm just sick and tired of the same topic everyday!!! oh ya.. i'm not a lesbian btw.. hahaha...

nothing to do..

2005-07-04T14:18:00.000+08:00

4th july: now is break time.. i'm at the e plaza, again, waiting for time to pass.. sigh~ so bored! >_<>

devil is strong indeed. it's everywhere, anywhere. haha~ dunno why suddenly thought of this, but i agreed with this sentence. it's always beside us, dropping wisphers into our hearts or ears, telling us to do or say something tat will hurt people. gossipings and back-stabbings are some of the well-known 'devil acts' from our mouth [ok.. i confess. i did these 2 things often last time]. if you are a christian, it's better to pray to God and ask Him to guard your mouth, the most sinnful and horrible part of the face.

i wonder why God gives us a mouth. is it for us to eat, to fill our stomach with food to meet our body needs or even, our desire? if so, why do He give us a vocal cord tat produces voice? seriously, i know a lot of people who have heard of this, i feel tat God gives us a mouth to encourage people who are down. He gives us a mouth so we can voice out our needs, our love, our praises to Him. i also feel tat He gives us lips, which helped in protecting our mouth, but also to keep our 'gaps' shut. i always dun like people who like to talk a lot [partly cos i'm quite a quiet person.. lolz~ =P]. i mean people.. dun you realize tat more and more people want to speak, but less and less people want to listen. we can't have a society where all speak but none listens. if there's no listeners, how do we know tat those speakers spoke well, full of senses? or are they just talking nonsense?

lolz~ dun bother about this bloggie. i only write for fun and laughter [cos verna's someone who dun like to talk about the 'ways of life']. all these above, no matter you agree to it or not, i dun care. wat i care is.. may God truly guard our mouths from the devil's doing! in Jesus name i pray. Amen! ^_<

first day in school..

2005-07-04T10:40:00.001+08:00

4th july: school starts today. i just had my breakfast-cum-lunch. now sitting in the e plaza, updating this bloggie. =) felt so strange to come to school today. nearly cannot wake up [cos used to waking up at 9am.. ahaha~ and today need to reach school by 8am]. nothing much changed in the school. except tat there are new faces tat i neva see before.

anyway, i baptised yesterday! praise the LORD!! =) but felt quite sad cos while we were sitting down there [oh ya.. me baptised with my other friend], the host said something like, 'now the one to baptise is blah~blah~blah~. can her supporters please wave their hands?' i felt sad. cos my family members dun encourage me to baptise at all. but luckily got my friend's mother. she came to support her daughter, but i doubt tat any of them knew tat i felt good to see her. haha~ preharps God wan me to feel good ba.. dunno la.. hahahaha..

when i reached home, mother knew about it. she screamed at me. but i didn't rebuke her. after a while, she left me alone. but sad.. cos my father still thought tat i haven't baptise. den he came to tell me a lot of things tat make me felt weird. anyway, we ended there. i dun feel like telling them anything about how i feel. sigh~

dunno why, i felt tat me and my family members dun unite now. i mean, i felt tat we think and see differently [especially with my parents]. i felt depressed when my dad told me tat i dun have to go home after i baptised. but i truly trust tat Jesus Christ existed. He is brought back to life after 3 days of his death. i believe, too, tat there's a Father, a God, a Lord who created us, love us and care for us with all His heart. i believe tat Father is there. tat He's always availble to hear us, to provide for us, to love us, to care for us. i really love this Father!! and so, i love His Son, Jesus Christ too!!

the paster who prayed for me, told me tat 'the Lord knows. He will give you what you want if you remain as a faithful Christian.' i believed and i prayed. i think i know wat i want. thank God for assuring me tat You will keep Your promise to me. Amen!!

holiday coming to an end ^^

2005-06-27T11:44:00.000+08:00

27th june: at last! school gonna starts!! haha~ so happy about going to year 3.. =) how i hope tat year 3 pass by faster than year 2. hee~ >_^ i guessed a lot of people gonna kill me when they see this sentence. lolz.. yesterday was the end of my baptism course. can't believe it tat i had been going to church for the past five weeks. it's so cool to know God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit better! haha~ =D okok.. i shouldn't boast >_<

i just started playing an on-line game, called priston tale. not a bad game, but i cannot play it anymore if my level reaches 39. sigh~ wasted! anyway, like usual, i started with a 'mage', aka 'magician' in tat game. but since i ranked up once, i'm now known as a 'wizard'. nothing much changed about my appearance, except a jewel-like string around my head. and tell you the truth, i rather they didn't put tat thing! it's so ugly!! >.<>

know wat? i'm tanner! haha~ after two picnic trips in 2 or 3 weeks ago, my mother said i look like a malay now. hee~ the picnic was nice! i liked the one in east coast especially! the sun was nice, the breeze nicer, the sand even better! haha~ [i'm someone who dun like to wear shoes by the way..] we made a tortoise on the sand. lolz! [actually, wanted to make a sandcastle but forgot to bring pail and spade.. sigh..] later on tat day, it was destroyed by the current.. sad.. =( well.. we took quite a number of photos too! lolz!! first time like to pose in front of the camera! haha~ i remembered after tat, we went to tm to watch movie, the 'dun-know-wat' horror [neva learnt to pronouce tat word.. haha.. =P] den, we went to cafe catel for dinner. lolz~ everyone was like dead meat, dragging ourselves around the mall and century!! [lolz.. resident evil.. lame >_^] but it was very fun!!

the next one was planned by jolyn. not bad too, cos of the kite flying. our kite flew so high tat in the sky, you can only see a dot. lolz!! so funny when i asked them to pose while looking at the kite. especially jolyn! lolz!! so cute of her.. =D anyway, i dun remember finishing the food. so in the end, we brought back quite a lot. oh ya.. we went to marina south park [is it? dun remember.. lolz] first time go park for picnic! haha~ and first time, got boys in our pictures!! lolz! ^^ anyway, think everyone enjoyed the trip. and thank God for the weather!! haha~

did i tell you about the escape theme park tat i went recently? anyway, there's a new place in there, called 'the haunted house'. lolz!!! tat's even more lame than anything tat i been before! =P anyway, before going in, we [my 3 sisters and i] heard a lot of shouts from the house. so we were rather prepared to scream. when we went in, there's a guy there, wearing black and carrying something on his hands, making shouts like 'awwwwhhhh!!' well, i guessed tat supposed to frightned us, but we just stared at him. then he shouted tat same 'awwwhhh' again and again. lolz!! suddenly, my younger sis said 'siao ah!' at him when he shouted the third 'awwwwhh' lolz!!!! ^^ so funny!!! hahaha~ anyway, throughout the whole time inside there, only my younger sis made a grasp. the rest of us were like, 'sianz'. haha~

there's a boat ride thingy called 'wild and wet'. doubt people know the name of tat activity, but it's something to do with a boat tat goes uphill, then downhill. anyway, tat's the game tat i least wanna play!! [me scared of height.. =(] i screamed when we [me and my youngest sis were sharing a boat] went down a small hill. can you imagine my fear when we are going uphill of tat high hill [think more than 100m high]!! when we went down, i really screamed at the top of my voice!! while yelling half way, water entered my mouth.. yucks!! but i survived.. so happy.. ,>_<,

overall, i think i spent my holiday worthwhile!! haha~ thank God for blessing me with the energy to play!! hahaha~ =)

long time no see ^^

2005-06-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

23rd june: haha~ so long neva update my entery =P lolz~ been quite busy with attachment and up-coming events. overall, attachment at sgh ended well. i love ward 47! the best ward tat i''ve been too, and without fail, always enjoyed the posting there. most of the staff are friendly, and willing to teach us. glad tat God place me at tat ward for my last posting of year 2. 2 weeks later, i'll be year 3!! so fast! ah~ to tell you the truth, i wasn't prepared at all. i felt tat i still dun behave like a poly student. sigh~

ok.. i've been doing lots of shopping recently, though i hardly spend anything for myself [hee~ ya rite..]. anyway, today's my cousin's, arthur, birthday. happy birthday yi er!! lolz~ ^^ sigh~ g2g.. bro need to use com. update tomo!! ^^

this is getting interesting..

2005-05-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

29th may: i remembered yesterday tat i mentioned to go to church for recharging. well, apparently, i'm recharged spiritually and mentally! haha~ and actually learnt a few things about God's work. just wanna share a few things tat i remembered..

the speaker for today was called edward pousson. a very well-learnt speaker who really brought the point out to convience people. well, i think it's God at work. anyway, he shared with us acts 16:6-40. a long passage, but lots of meaningful things to learn. he said tat whenever we felt tat our plans dun turn out as it is, and actually seems like forcing us to turn to the some other directions, it may be the work of the devil, but may be the work of God too [pretty profound for me to unnderstand btw..]. he started telling us about his encounter about tat, and wat's the outcome. i remembered he said tat to live in God's way, you need to be prosecuted [there's a verse in the bible tat said so, can't remember where is it.. haha~]. count it as a blessing for you are following God's word.

then soon, we ended in prayer. he said, 'those who felt tat the plans in your life are disturbed, raise your hand'. i did. then he said, 'those who feels more encouraged [or something like tat..], raise your hand'. i did. but when he said, 'those who felt tat you are being prosecuted, raise your hand', i didn't. cos i felt tat i'm not. but dunno why, he didn't wan to end there. he started saying, 'perharps some are too humble to raise your hands, but if you felt any kind of prosecution, any kind. like your parents dun wan you go to go to church [wa.. think you all neva know wat's i'm feeling inside when he said tat], your boss, your friends, or even your drama series tat are stopping you to go near God [sorry, didn't really remembered wat was said, but something like tat], please raise your hands.' i was so shocked tat God really wan me to raise my hand tat much!! lolz~ anyway, i did rose my hand at last, and he said 'thank you. God bless you.' haha~ it's like he's waiting for me to raise my hands! lolz~ =)

anyway, i learnt quite a number of things about God. i hope tat my faith can continue to be strenghten!! haha~ thank God for the heavy rain pour too [i'm like drenched, inside out! lolz~ together with foong cui btw.. haha~] Lord Jesus, thank you for coming into my life and making me who i am today. thank you Lord, for opening my heart to You Lord, or else, i'll neva find tat much of comfort tat i had found since You came. truly Lord, i thank You for dying at my sin. for through Your death, i can go to Father's side. really Lord.. thank You.. =)

rushing enteries

2005-05-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

27th may: i think today is, maybe, the best day in the ward. thank God tat the staff are alrite, and the patients too. maybe not for some who scolded me today. i seriously dun think it's my fault! how do i know wat she wanted if she said, 'draw the curtain'. ok.. 'draw curtain' is simple enough to understand. so i drew it all the way to the side. normal people, like me, will do so. who knows, she shouted at me, 'no! dun draw, dun draw!' i was confused at the moment, so i stopped and looked at her. she gave a look tat said: this ger is so stupid!

anyway, she den said [not said, should be shout!], 'half-way only!' so i drew it half-way, and left. but dunno why, she shouted again!! now, she said 'not like tat! half way! more to the side!!'

tell you all.. i nearly screamed at her!! firstly, no clear instructons given. secondly, i'm not your slave!!! thirdly, can you please be polite at least! i know tat you are not feeling alrite, tat's why you are angry. but why do you wan to make other people angry too, just because of you! sigh.. anyway, thank God tat i didn't say any of those to her, or i'll be complained for sure.

28th may: monday is another day in tat dirty, lack-of-friendly-staff, bad-environment and very, very hot ward. how i hope i can escape working in tat ward! ah! so sianz!! =( sigh~ dunno why God wanna send me and my friends there for work. maybe He wanna test my patience, or perharps my faith for Him.. either way, i'm reaching my limit soon i fear.

anyway, today went out with my cousins and sisters to watch the movie 'madagascar'. a movie, indeed, for children. haha~ not tat i dun enjoy it, but the child behind me was like, pulling my hair, kicking my seat, making funny faces at the gap between the two seats, having the father to threaten to bring her home all the while but didn't help much.. blah~ blah~ how can you possibly ask me to enjoy it? i'm someone who need quiet, or maybe at least not too disturbing, atmosphere to concentrate. so, i felt tat i had wasted $9.50 today. sigh~ T_T

need to go to church tomorrow, for recharging. haha~ i felt so drained out working there.. may tomorrow be a God blessed day!!

a day out.. at long last!

2005-05-21T19:46:00.000+08:00

21st may: had been having attachment for the past 2 weeks. i felt tat all my energy had been drained out, not by the workload, but by my friend -- known as 'vase' [a nickname we gave her]. she lived up to her nick, standing at one side, talking to her friends and not doing the things tat she ought to do. sigh~!! dunno how can she even score high marks for the attachment! sigh!! luckily, from next week onwards, we are of different time slot, so i dun have to work with her for the next 2 weeks. thank God! ^^

anyway, exam time is over. i felt tat i may do well for the papers, at least for sure, i dun expect to see a 'd' in my result slip. hahaha~ so confident sia. 'scarly' i got all 'd's. lolz~ i must thank God for His kindness. i started studying like a few weeks before exam, one of the topic is one day before! thanks to praying to God, most of the questions tat came out were the ones tat i remembered most. hahaha~ so happy!

frankly speaking, i didn't even notice tat days passed by so quickly until i went out with my junior today. we talked fo the old times and some of the present. den suddenly she brought up tat the last time i ever saw her was one year back. tat shocked me a little, cos i felt tat we just saw each other a short while ago. haha~ old le.. old le.. memories are failing me.. sigh.. i always told my friends tat, and i always meant wat i said. i really felt tat i dun behave like a teenager, but rather, an old, dying woman. seems like, you are who you think you are. lolz~ =)

well, i was rather disappointed tat my senior didn't come out with us today. but come to think of it, if she really come out today, think she will be pretty quiet and is the person who will listen to wat me and our junior will be saying. haha~ so cannot blame her..

ok.. think i'll stop for a while. if i can think of anything ot write later, i'll be back! haha~

thank you Lord

2005-04-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

23rd april: today's my birthday. glad tat quite a lot of ppl still remembered tat i existed in this world. lolz~ ^^ went out with violet, angie and jing tzy to sungei buloh. hahaha~ all of us got frights from the sudden entry of the monitor lizards [though most of them are pretty small, around 1m in average]. especially angie, who screamed so loud tat i thought it's crocodile tat she saw. lolz~!! =D anyway, we quite enjoy the scenery there. the images of the clouds on the water was like.. 'awww.. so peaceful..' haha~ ^^

oh ya, before we reached tat place, i got a surprise call from liam. lolz!! i was glad to hear tat his voice was quite pleasant to hear. always thought tat he had deep voice.. [no offense ah liam.. lolz~] =P after the call, violet they all were like, grinning at me.. sigh~ forgot how i reacted to them le, but i knew it wasn't natural. hee~ =)

den we went to changi airport for lunch. oh yea, we booked a taxi there. the journey was smooth and comfortable [maybe cos we took comfort cab.. lolz~] me and violet talked all the way there, most of the topic we touched on was about band. hmm, neva thought tat we had so much to talk about it, but we did it. heh~ =)

we ate dim sum at crystal jade resturant with adeline. first time eating it, and i loved it!! hahaha~ we can't finish the food in the end, so 'de bao' home.. den we go tm shopped for awhile before going home.

anyway, at home, i had my cake cut only at 9pm plus [cos parents went to work first]. the cake was super nice!! strawberry flavour. think it costed 50 plus bucks!! hahaha~ first time eat so expensive de birthday cake. hahaha~ very touched.. ^^

overall, i enjoyed my birthday. thank God for blessing it to be enjoyable. thank God, too, for blessing the weather with no rain. hahaha~ really Lord. thanks for all the things You've blessed me with [presents included]. lolz~ =D

24th april: today just went into friendster. so many ppl sent me testimonials and msgs to wish me 'happy birthday'. haha~ very touched, esp. when i saw barat's [lolz~ forgot how to spell his name..] msg. and i received lots of sms from my secondary school friends, like cat and jolyn. and even my primary school friends, like huayping! hahahaha~ tell you the truth, i really didn't expect some of the people to remember my birthday, like jackson and liam. really.. people who wished me 'happy birthday', verna's here.. truly am touched. thank you, God!! for bringing these people into my life. bless them o'Lord!! thank you!! =)

attachment starts tomo!!

2005-04-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

17th april: sigh.. tat dorris.. neva tell us the exact timing for tomo.. anyway, verna's not a very good ger today =P

a day in school

2005-04-15T10:33:00.000+08:00

15th april: now in school. just printed out the stuff i wanted. think got around 100 over pieces.. lolz~ the people behind me were like.. >_<, when's she's ending, wa.. print so much.. lolz~

anyway, yesterday played utopia. first time killed people sia!! but wasted a lot of runes and costed my 2 wizards' life when the spell failed.. lolz~ *sigh* =3 but my kingdom's people very nice! i'm glad tat the computer, or should i thank God for it, for placing me in this kingdom. hee~ and yesterday got no mood to study at all!! sigh~ so should be studying when i reached home ba. hee~ =)

study day..

2005-04-12T19:54:00.000+08:00

12th april: verna is a good ger today. she studied from morning 9 plus, to afternoon 12pm. also, she helped her mother to do housework [plz.. this is not expected from her, maybe a little..]! then she companied her elder sis to tampines mall, where she was misunderstood by a passerby for being a twin of her sis. they went to buy rubber bands [she had 3 and her sis 5]. and most importantly, she bought her first discman! well, she was overjoyed cos she always wanted to buy it, since the first discman her sis had. anyway, when her younger sis came back home, verna and her started to examine it. after a 15-min experimentation, they knew how to operate it! thank God [cos verna's someone with little patience]!! so thought that she would be the first person to use it, but to her surprise, it's her younger sis who's using it now.

haha~ purposely write this to let my sis see de.. lolz~ ^^ anyway, nothing much was done today!! but i enjoyed it. hee~

i dun like guys who are not gentlemen, a fat liar, and most importantly, someone who's selfish!

study time!!

2005-04-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

9th april: today went out with becca, adeline, jing tzy and violet. thought it won't be fun at first cos it's a odd-numbered group. but thank God for blessing us, we enjoyed it!! haha~ =D we went to tampines mall to watch 'the pacifier', staring vin desel. it's a comdey, and we started laughing 5 minutes after the show started. lolz~ long time neva watch a show tat can make me laughed full-heartedly le.. so i enjoyed it. hee~ think the rest of my friends did too cos after tat, there were grins and giggles among them when we talked about it. nice show, so ppl!! go and watch if you have the time!! =)

supposed to go for attachment next week, but it was cancelled due to the >vre<. sigh~ thought can enjoy my birthday in peace de [cos my attachment supposed to end on the day before it], but now, attachment replaced during my study week.. sigh~!!! tat dorris sux!!!!!! =P

hope i can enjoy my birthday this year.. feel like wanting to make a change about my appearance this year.. hee~ ^^

last post

2005-04-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

4th april: ok.. this's the last post for today. now in school waiting for friend.. only three people in the whole computer lab. haha~ =) anyway, today's paper was quite easy. at least the questions were very direct. it's just either you know or you dun.. i'm glad tat i have studied and prayed before the paper.. hee~

after the paper, my favourite psychology lecturer, mr. thomas sim, told us a terrible news.. he's resigning. friday will be his last day in school.. sigh~ why?! he's nice and funny.. very patient and knowledgeable. at least i understood his lessons quite well [too bad neva get a.. sigh~], a lot of people complain tat they dun understand him at all.. well, i think it's their fault, cos whenever he stared his lesson, there bound to be people who were so~~~ inconsiderate [talking in class]. they talked so loud, of course some of us can't hear him, and those who talked, said they dun understand after the lecture. wa liao! so stupid!! of course dun understand la! dun even listen in class.. sigh~ >_ ok.. tat's the past.. at least some of them retained in year one now.. lolz~ [so, so, so bad me.. hee~ >=D]

now.. for the past few days, things haven't been going smoothly. a lot of things happened around my friends. they got family problems and peers' too. sigh~ as for myself, i'm just having quick temper recently.. [think coming le ba.. lolz~] anyway, sgh having some spread of bacteria which might affect my attachment next week.. sigh~!! if the bacteria keep spreading, next week, me and my classmates, going to sgh for attachment, no need to go le. it supposed to be a good thing.. but! i'll have a week lesser holiday and an extra week of attachment during the holidays!! no!! it can't be!! ah!!

hmmm.. for the presentation in the morning, tat andy gonna give us b- to c+, he said tat it varied between individuals. guessed wat? i'll be tat person with c+. wanna know the reason? [even if you dun wan, i'm still saying.. lolz~] ok.. firstly, i dun have eye contact throughout [cos i very sianz and dun know wat i'm presenting]. secondly, i can't figure wat's tat 2 words tat my friend wrote for me, and she actually came out to the front and helped me read my script! ah~ this's the part tat i'm angry about.. [cos tat andy said something like, you need to prepare your own work]. of course i know tat i had to prepare my own work, but i was doing research for the part tat shuhong was presenting. and in the end, i was given another part tat was not familiar to me, and i only know wat i'll present 5 min before the start! ah~!! >=( thirdly, the role play [script written by me, with ideas mostly mine]. althea was so nervous tat she missed a lot of stuff tat she supposed to do! ah! disaster sia! i wasn't happy about it cos in the end, nothing was said tat i was the 'one' who wrote the script! no credit = low marks! very angry lor!

anyway.. i always got a feeling tat he dun like me, cos during discussion with him, he neva lay an eye on me before. ok.. i know tat i'm not pretty, but please! at least show respect to your students and let us feel tat we are, indeed~, doing a discussion with you! not standing in your office, looking at you and my team mates having good time chatting. sigh~ sigh~ sigh~

felt betta now..

2005-04-04T13:13:00.000+08:00

4th april: ok.. now i'm more calm.. just now just vented my anger, so ppl! dun be shocked.. haha~ =) and dun even try to make me mad cos i can really come up with nasty things tat you neva thought that that actually come out of my mouth.. hee~ >=D anyway, today have psycho test at 6pm. oh ya.. just now tat presentation is psycho one.. sigh~ PSYCHO sux! and likewise for tat stupid andy ong. think after the test, i won't step into his class anymore le. =P yea.. maybe i won't.. good point to ponder for tomo.. hee~ >_^ today waiting for violet till 8pm, so maybe i'll update wat happen to me for the past few days ba.. now need to study for tat stupid topic!! sigh~

TODAY SUX.. SUX.. SUX.. SUX..SUX..SUX!!!!

2005-04-04T12:49:00.000+08:00

4h april: it's not like the usual suxy day.. today just sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! presentation just now is a disaster!!! my group mates sux too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! angry with them now.. esp. for a few. sigh~ i feel that i did the most things, but GOD knows why!!!!!! the presentation sux la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so cold!! again.. and again~

2005-03-31T15:29:00.000+08:00

31st march: for the past 3 days, whenever i woke up, the sky was darken by the grey clouds. tat worried me a little for i need to reach school in 2 hours time, and i dun know whether it will rain while i'm still walking on the unsheltered area towards school. but luckily, as a christian, i believed tat it's God who controlled the weather. i prayed for no rain during tat stretch of road, and God, mercifully, granted my wish =) very thankful tat God had blessed me, for i see his miracle's act!! haha~ =D though it's only a simple prayer for a simple thing, i'm glad tat God had answered it.. hee~ >_^

anyway, for the past few days, i had been pretty stressed up by the uproaring events tat are taking place, one by one. i had quite a few project discussions going on, and at the same time, group members are not co-operating quite well [each of us has our say and point of view tat they think are important]. maybe cos we didn't really elect any one as the group leader ba.. lolz~ at least those 'possible' leaders dun wanna be leaders, and i dun feel secure working with one of my classmates, cos she's a little straight forward and impatient, and.. lack of knowledge [whenever there's a meeting, she's the one asking for the definition for all the nouns when the lecturer had mentioned about them a lot of times.. and the best part, the lecture notes had all the answers!! =\]. with all the menbers talking at the same time, i was irritated.. very.. so, whenever they ask me for a comment, i simply said, "anything lor, up to you". haha~ now, come to think of it, tat's why some looked angry when i repeated tat sentence to everyone. haha~ =P

so~ with all the stressful events and hormonal changes, i'm tired easily and hot-tempered recently. whoever felt insulted or unhappy cos of me, forgive me!! =P

a day to remember..

2005-03-28T16:40:00.000+08:00

28th march: continue with the previous entry..

just had my practical lab.. lolz~ we did apex beat today. very fun sia!! hahaha~ =D one or two of my classmates like a little bit, ah.. out of control.. lolz~ =) now having break.. of.. 13 minutes. still got class later all the way to 7 pm sia!! sianz sia.. now chatting with my friend, hong. haha~ making fun of her english now.. quite enjoyed it. haahaha~ =) she said she also hungry, when i'm not hungry. lolz~ dun know wat she trying to say.. ahahah~

today quite enjoyed myself.. overall.. ahaha~

-nothing-much-to-say-

2005-03-28T14:28:00.000+08:00

28th march: class gonna starts at 3 pm later. it's 2.20 now, so decided to pop in to update my bloggie before forgetting about it. haha~ =) now in e-plaza.. just now the environment was good, cos quiet.. but now, suddenly got a group of people coming in and settled here.. sigh~ anyway, nothing much happen recently. supposed to go church yesterday de, but couldn't wake up, so din go in the end.. sigh~ =( happened many times le..

oh yea.. liam didn't sms me for the last 3 days. think he reaches his limit or maybe he got his handphone bill le ba.. lolz~ but i dun really mind.. cos.. cos..

luffy-san seems to avoid me recently. dun like the feeling of it. sigh~ i dun care and i dun mind, as long as he dun talk to me again. =P

oh.. just started reading a book by robert jordan, called the eye of the world. it's nice!! really.. if anyone has a chance to read it, please read it with pride. lolz~ >=D

suddenly dun feel like continuing my updating le. not cos of luffy-san. just no mood.. haha~ =P

a day of boredom..

2005-03-28T14:20:00.007+08:00

28th march: class gonna starts at 3 pm later. it's 2.20 now, so decided to pop in to update my bloggie before forgetting about it. haha~ =) now in e-plaza.. just now the environment was good, cos quiet.. but now, suddenly got a group of people coming in and settled here.. sigh~ anyway, nothing much happen recently. supposed to go church yesterday de, but couldn't wake up, so din go in the end.. sigh~ =( happened many times le..

oh yea.. liam didn't sms me for the last 3 days. think he reaches his limit or maybe he got his handphone bill le ba.. lolz~ but i dun really mind.. cos.. cos..

luffy-san seems to avoid me recently. dun like the feeling of it. sigh~ i dun care and i dun mind, as long as he dun talk to me again. =P

suddenly dun feel like continuing my updating le. not cos of luffy-san. just no mood.. haha~ =P

lousy day..

2005-03-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

21st march: starting class at 12.05pm is always a lousy day.. cos when we start late, it means tat we end late. today ends class at 7pm. from now [1.19pm] to the next class [which starts at 6 pm], i have more than 4 hours of break. sigh.. lousy starts, lousy ends..

joanne's presentation was alrite just now, but think tat 'handsome' ong giving them low grade [maybe a high c+ or a low b-, but considering their relationship with tat 'ong lai', they should have a a- ba]. her presentation was about memory. den they teach us to make short term memory to long term ones. so we played a game [remembering all the pictures and list down as many as possible], and here came the problem.. yvonne [one of the presenter] told shu hong, 'why you cannot remember anything?' well, she's known to be frank, but most of the time, she dun mean wat she said [really lor!!]. anywya, shu hog got insulted and her face suddenly turned black.

i knew she's angry, so tired talking to her. but dunno why, she ingored me. at first i thought tat she didn't hear me, she i repeated, and she remind the same. sigh~ den i know tat she's angry with me too. ah~ wat have i done? nothing tat i knew tat i've done wrongly de ma. sigh~ gers~ >=( anyway, she talked to me in the end, but cos i'm still a little angry tat she vent her unhappiness on me, i tired to make the converstaion short. supposed to go lunch together de, i backed up in the end [cos need to calm myself down a little, before i angry with her again]. sigh.. gers~ lolz~ i'm petty too~ =P

btw, yesterday's 'lord of the rings -- the fellowship of the ring' at channel 5 was great!! haha~ the 'legolas' very handsome sia!! lolz~ >=D tat's why when the movie just came out in the cinema, a lot of ppl went to watch him only. hahaha~ cute fans of his..

wa~ pass my test le!! ^^

2005-03-18T12:31:00.000+08:00

18th march: i passed!! i passed!! lolz~ i passed!!! >=D so happy tat i passed my lab test sia!! hahahaha~ must thank God cos when i went in, i cannot find the medication tat i need [all thanks to the brand and generic names of the drugs..] i was so scared sia! den i prayed to God, 'Lord Father.. i wanna pass this test!! please help me!!'. upon praying, i took the medication tat i suspect was the right one, and started my practical test.

during the test, i had nothing in my brain tat's helping me. i said anything tat i thought was rite, and luckily [again, God bless me.. lolz~ ^_<], the examiner guided me along the way, and thank God tat she didn't ask me any weird or hard-to-understand questions!! and in the end [though i took one hour for the test], she passed me!! lolz~ >=D hahaha~ so happy now~~ =) luckily my gang friends all pass too!! really man, thank you so much Lord!! hahaha~ ^_<

ok.. anyway, need to rush on projects and tests recently, so neva update my blog. haha~ =P i will try my best to update it everday de, though i think no one will follow closly to this. hee~ >=)

oh yea~ liam's been very rich recently. he smsed me almost everyday since my last entry. haha~ working le ma.. tat's why so rich. lolz~ kidding!! ^^, hope he's fine over there.

prayer of the day: Father Lord, please continue to bless my family members and friends and people who i know of, with good health.. veyr good health [cos recently a lot of passerby fall sick le]!! well God, please bless those who are sick to recover from the illnesses tat troubling them. Father, may i pray tat You will continue to protect them too, christians and non-christian alike, for Lord, lossing any of those tat i know will hurt me badly. Lord, please bless their family members too. thank you Lord. may i pray for all these things in Jesus' name. Amen.

presentation for ee nor..

2005-03-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

14th march: ok.. it went on well. nothing special tat i wanna say, except tat i speak a little too much.. sigh.. =P den after tat felt happy cos all my friends like awake.. hahaha~ =) thank God!!! hee~ =D den after tat is my friends presentation for mr handsome ong. it didin't goes one well. my conclusion is rite.. he sux!!! >=P i'm rite for likeing him at the first place.. guessed wat he did? he laughed at the speakers when they didn't understand wat they are speaking.. i mean, it's their fault tat they are not well-prepared, but he shouldn't lauged at them so openly lor!! >=( den i asked my friends are they ok not, they told me tat when they went to ask him how to do, he didn't tell them anything except telling them to find out. ah~!! where got this type of ppl de?! sigh.. anyway, dun like him la..

shu hong and some of my other friends had tests today.. the killer, clinicial lab!! all the best!! haha~ =D

paging for ee nor! i repeat, paging for ee nor..!!

2005-03-11T15:13:00.000+08:00

11th march: today is a cold day. it drizzle alittle while i was having my lunch with shu hong. now in e plaza again [like usual la.. whenever shs students are free, we camped at there till our next class starts.. ahaha~ =D] i only updated my bloggie when i'm at here.. so, if i go attachment, dun expect to hear anything about me for at least 2 weeks.. hee~ ^^ anyway.. now feel so cold sia!! ah~~ neva bring jacket again.. sigh..

me and shu hong had been looking for ee nor [our mch lecturer] for like 2 days le, and she neva even answer our call(s).. sigh.. den still need my friend to tell us where is she so tat we can find her. and when we found her [she's having a class], shu hong went in to ask her when will she be free, and she told her, 'aiyo.. even when i'm eating also got disturbed by students..' lolz~ guessed wat's my first thought? i was thinking.. 'cos you didn't answer our miss call and you are not in the office for like, the whole day?' =P very bad hor? haahahaha.. =P anyway, found her at last. hope tat she can give us some good tips tat we can improve on, rather than critising on it [cos we only did a 8 pages project when it supposed to be a 20-minutes presentation.. lolz~ >=)]

confession: did something not nice yesterday night. sigh.. dun feel good about it. felt tat i had betrayed God like tat.. sigh.. sorry Lord!! =( hope christians who see this bloggie, please pray for me.. not to do things tat God dislikes.. sigh..

exam finished le!!

2005-03-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

10th march: exam just finished!! haha~ very happy though the paper is hard. =D things tat i had studied hardly comes out.. lolz~ very funny sia, cos those tat i didn't studied came out!! hahaha~ ^^ dun know why like tat le.. maybe cos i prayed wrongly or not sincered enough ba.. lolz~ or maybe cos God wanna test me, or maybe cos i neva put in enough effort.. hahaha~ >=D think i know the main reason ba.. cos i didn't put in the effort! think it's pretty obvious ba.. i just read through the whole book yesterday and a little bit of the notes today. hee~ okok.. i know.. it's my fault!! lolz~ ^_<>_^

now still in shool, waiting for my friend till 8pm. hope their teacher will be nice again.. but this time round, i'm waiting for jolyn, not violet. haha~ =D hope i'll have a good nite sleep. hope liam have a good nite sleep and a peaceful day today. hope all my friends and family members are safe now. Father Lord, continue to protect them from any forms of evil acts, and bless them with good health! hee~ thanks Lord!! =)

exam today!!

2005-03-10T12:18:00.000+08:00

10th march: clinical lab theory test at 6pm to 7pm today. i hardly remembered anything.. sigh~ and my friend, shu hong, sitting beside me is reading the notes like crazy~!! lolz~ luckily she's busy revising her stuff, neva see this sentence.. haha~ >=) now listening to ou de yang's 'peng you' [friends in chinese la..] very nice le!!! =D long time neva hear his voice le.. and i'm neva sick of listening to his songs. hee~ in love with his voice le.. hahaha~ ^^ how i hope tat he can starts his own concert soon.. trust me, even he's not good-looking, he surely did charm most of his audiences with his voice >_^ and if he really did open a concert and it comes to singapore, i'll buy his tickets de!!! hahaha~ >=D

sms of the day: ever wondered why fishes swim? ever wondered why birds fly? ever wondered why i sms so late? cos things are made this way. fishes need to swim, birds need to fly. and i like to sms you late, before i go to bed.

nice beginning, but if you think for a while after reading it, you might find it lame ba.. hahaha~ kidding, kidding.. ^_<>

ok la.. need to stop here.. going for lunch now.. haha~ may God bless all those taking exam today!!! =D

cold again..

2005-03-09T16:14:00.000+08:00

9th march: so cold!! been in the e plaza for the past 3 hours. not bad for someone who's cold intolerance!! haha~ =) anyway, waiting for friend now, and at the same time, doing revisions for theory test tomorrow. only did a third of the topics le~!! might fail.. might fail. lolz~ but i'm not scared and dun really care!! hahaah~ >=D

qian ru gave me something today. not a bad present. it's a heart-shaped glass bottle, containing sand and some seashells. the shells very nice!! like tiny conches. very cute la.. but one bad thing is tat, the sand smerge a little. but neva mind, go home, i'll clean it!! haha~ thanks ger!! ^^

been quite close with liam recently. well, a least got sms each other every other day. got happy to receive his messages, at least, it make me felt glad tat i knew soemone like him.. =) thank God for bringing us together!! haha~ >_^ well.. now i dun know who i like le. like no one to like. first time like tat.. hahaha.. must go and find someone to like le, or else i will rot to death!! lolz~ cos ran out of topic to talk to violet le. so need to find something tat attracts mine and her's attention. hee~ thought of sharing the things tat liam and me talked about de.. but dun know why, i scared tat she might not be happy to heard them. though she's always very enthu to hear wat we are saying to each other, i got a strange feeling tat she might not really wanna hear about it, but acting enthu cos dun wan to disappoint me. sigh..

aiyo.. one by one my friends left me.. first is shu hong, now is joanne.. when will violet appear?! ah~~ going mad alone le!! ah~~ lolz.. =P me is the only nr 0306 left in the plaza.. now only 4:32 pm.. how i hope tat her lecturer will be kind enough to release her early!! i wanna go home~!! =`( when i reached home, need to study for my tests.. den after tat need to watch tv.. den after tat need to play computer game.. den search for pictures for my 'infant care' project.. den maybe will eat something.. den study again, den read comic.. den sleep ba.. hmmm.. lolz~ ^^ tests tomorrow still can be so relax de.. hahaha~ think only me like tat ba!! hahaha~

lolz~ just saw two of my other friends in the plaza.. so, great!! hahaha. i'm not alone!! hee~ =D thank God!! before leaving this bloggie to continue the quest of 'memorizing-stupid-therapies-for-tomo's-exam', may God bless everyone who's studying for it, wisdom and strength to be able to understand and remember all the facts tat are applicable for tomorrow's exam!! may God bless everyone in my class, and of cos, those tat i knew la!! haha~ ^_<

sigh..

2005-03-08T15:48:00.000+08:00

8th march: indeed.. it's not a happy day yesterday. got a feeling tat something will happen and i'm rite with it. quarrelled with my younger sis, and beat her up too. =P God please forgive me for it.. sigh..

mum's curry sucks.. it's more of chilli oil than curry. dunno wat my siblings did to it, when i reached home yesterday nite, the curry only left oil. so i only ate the oil.. sigh.. >=(

luckily today is betta. things goes on pretty well. just had my lunch after 3 lectures, now having my 3 hours break. came to school alone today. hahaha~ not a bad experience.. hee~ =) can read my comic and dun have to bother to think of wat to talk to anyone. guessed tat i enjoy loner's life ba.. hahaha~ ^_<>

happy day? hmmm..

2005-03-07T12:51:00.000+08:00

7th march: yesterday just went to church. nice service there!! hahaha~ church of singapore is full of friendly people, humour pastors, cool environment and most of all, the only church so far tat i can feel God's presence.. hee~ =) the brother sharing with us yesterday said tat greed, envy and cowardly are the downfall of human race. agree not? at least i do, cos i experienced these 3 things often in my life.. hahah.. >_<

today went to school with violet. like usual, the things tat we can talked about are getting lesser.. very hard to bring up any topic, except anime [where we can talk for a while about it]. dunno why, i can't really stand her anymore.. maybe cos i always think tat she's acting cute infront of me. she always have tat accent. hmmm.. maybe it's always there, but i just notice it recently.. hahaha~ =P

anyway, mum cooked curry today!! think she cooked at 3 am, especially for me.. hahha~ i'm touched.. so today i must eat her curry!!! hee~ ^^

2005-03-05T15:04:00.000+08:00

5th march: today did nothing much, as usual la.. woke up at 9 am, study for a while, had my lunch at around 12:30 pm, den play runescape, den go shop for my sis stuff.. blah~ blah~ ... ... ... life's so boring.. at least for now.. dun feel like doing anything and wanna be bored till death finds me. haha~ joker!! =P anyway, nothing much happened, except tat i received a sms from w-san again. simple message, so dun feel like talking about it.

i just thought the past this morning. mum said tat i used to be very hyper, very tom-boy, very cute (?!), and the most important thing [she finds it important], i'm the most obedient child in the family. lolz~ if tat's the truth, i changed a lot [i meant it]. i remembered tat last time, i liked to laugh, like to greet people and i like to obey wat my mum said. haha~ =P she must had been very disappointed now ba.. >_<>=)

nothing-in-particular

2005-03-03T11:03:00.000+08:00

3rd march: yesterday, w-san gave a shock of my life.. he smsed me and told me tat the w-san in my blog, is tat him? wa~!!! i'm so shocked to receive it lor~! cos this bloggie is mean for me to vent my anger or to write anything tat i wan fated ppl to see de. i didn't expect him to see this blog.. lolz~ =) maybe cos i wrote too much things about him le ba, or maybe cos i wrote some things tat are not pleasant ba and i dun wan anyone [esp. ppl tat i liked] to know. hmm.. anyway.. doubt he'll visit it again.. haha~ >=D

a day to remember..

2005-03-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

1st march: today is the second day of my holiday. did nothing much except sending some pictures to my friends who kept on pestering me for them.. sigh~ just by sending the pictures, i know wat type of person one can be. for example, one of my friends only wanted the pictures with her inside. she dun wan the pictures with animals.. where got this type of 'ren' de? we go zoo le~ and she dun wan the animals' pic.. hmmm.. weird.. anyway, went to zoo on saturday. dun enjoy it much.. firstly, it rained a little. secondly, one of my friends is sick. thirdly, which make me dun enjoy the trip, 2 of my other friends sat down with her whenever they spotted any benches. where on earth did anyone who went to the zoo, paying 14 bucks, just to sit down on the benches and talk?! ah!!! die! very angry now.. 'calm down verna.. tat's not supposed to be the way..' [now thinking to myself].

anyway.. dun intend to go zoo with them anymore le. sigh.. esp. with the one who only wanted her pic. lolz~ seems like i only angry with her ba.. hmmm.. >=( dun know la.. had been quarrelling with her since the entry of poly. she changed a lot le.. not like her usual self.. she's more vain and smarter, and likes to give me tat type of stare whenever she's offended [to tell the truth, sometimes, i did it on purpose de.. hee~ >=D].. it's not the end yet! whenever she comes to me to tell me about her problems, she always have tat eyes.. tat irritating eyes!! ah!! >=O can't believe it tat i'm still going out with her, cos this is the character tat i dislike and despise the most!! humph!! i dun understand why her friends thought tat she's saintly, innocent and navie. dunno who's the one who gives her tat false illusion.. well, i dared to say tat she's not so 'guai' as most people think she is!!! doubt anyone know tat she have been telling me most of these people's bad points to me ba? doubt anyone know tat she have been showing me the look whenever she mentioned their names ba? doubt anyone knows tat she's actually not humble, not sweet and definatly not cute in her true self ba?! >=(

ok.. i felt better now, after saying those things out.. funny to say, i dun felt any gulit any writing these and i'm not afraid if anyone, even her, sees this. cos i didn't even mention her name.. hahaha~ =P

hehe~

2005-02-25T10:38:00.000+08:00

25th february: i passed my cpr! yea~ lolz~ =) thank God for it [cos i prayed for a pass!! last time forgot, so now remembered lolz~]. hahahaha~ ^^ next week onwards is the holiday.. hope things will on well for that week and no one will get injured while enjoying their holidays.. hee~ >_
last sunday, i saw y-san on the bus. haha~ very happy sia.. but tat's all. no much feelings for him le. think the 'admiration' dragged too long le ba, so not my fault. hahah~ giving excuses only. as for w-san, even worse. no feeling le. lolz~ very bad ger sia.. seems like i only like the person if he keep on companying me by talking everyday, or seeing him everyday.. hmmm.. think i'm not suitable for long distance relationship, or the ONE haven't appear yet. hahah~ lamer.. =P i dun like myself for being this way. sigh~

my sis told me not to tell ppl tat i have w-san cos he's not physically here for me. not only her, quite a no. of friends [who knew about him] told me the same thing too. but i think it's not a good idea cos like kinda 'betraying' him.. and there's always a fear tat he might be attached over there, without telling me.. sigh~!!! love sux!! agree not? haha~ >=)

oh my~ i really like ou de yang sia!! his voice is so~~ sweet and so comfortable to the ear! and the songs he sang.. aw~ so poor thing.. the gers he like are leaving him.. dun know really got these type of ppl around in real life. opps~ just remembered tat i have a ger-friend who's like this.. hahaha~ ger!! cheer up ba!! the ONE will come de! or else, we two continue our plan, become les ba!! lolz~!! hahahahaha~ >=D joking nia ah.. dun take it seriously.. haha~ =)

oh yea~ yesterday watched amazing race. den got one model couple who are looking for some envelope to continus the race. the guy nearly give up, den suddenly, he said to the ger: 'do you think i should pray?' den the ger replied: 'ya. pray out loud.' and so, he prayed. just wat? after the second or third line of the prayer, he found it!! miricle!! hahaha~ den he laughed, like cannot believe this. and the ger like not shock at all [think she expected tat to happen]. den of cos, he didn't forget to give thanks to God. hahaha~ see? =) prayer works!! to ppl out there who happen to see this espoide, God's showing you this magic or power of prayer.

'seek and ye shall find, ask and ye shall receive' from the song, seek ye first.
*ps: this song ah.. whenever i sing it in sec sch, i always lost my voice cos the pitch very high!! but the lyrics very de nice!! hahahaha~ God bless those who felt lost and may He provide you with answer tat you're looking for. hee~ =)

tomo is the day~!!!

2005-02-21T13:45:00.000+08:00

21st february: today is the final practice for cpr.. if i fail again, i will.. i will.. ah~~ i will go mad!! ah!!! >=( very wat de le~ think me got no talent in this type of thing.. haha~ i tired for 4 times le le, still cannot pass. =P anyway, hope tomo can pass this and get over woth it rather tat keep thinking tat, "if i pass, if only i pass.. blah~" may God bless my day to be an enjoyable one! so far, so good!! hahaaha~ =)

yea~!!!!`

2005-02-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

17th feb: new year sucks as usual.. no one came to vist except my father's siblings, namely my uncle and aunties. sigh~ good in the sense tat i have 2 days off from school, off from having to spend one hour to reach school, off from having to listen to those boring lectures saying their boring-and-hard-to-understand stuff [refering to hs 2035], off from seeing my friends who i dun wanna see =P, off from having to spend money on the food tat i have to eat just to stop my hunger [ps. the food not tasty de!!], off from.. ah~~ a lot of things la.. hahha~ =P

anyway, all these are last week stuff. this week nothing really special happen.. stop here ba.. hahaha~ lame la!!

new year is approaching..

2005-02-07T13:30:00.000+08:00

7th february : only slept for 4 hours plus.. sigh~ now got sleepy eyes le.. O_o!! anyway.. quite enjoyed today though still have a long way to go till the end of the day [ending at 7pm sia!! so evil.. sigh~ =3]

yesterday was fun! i occupied the com for the whole day sia.. hahah~ bro and sis wan to play but i dun let them.. hee~ >=) bad bad sis~ anyway, my 'one-million-np plan' is going on smoothly.. now got 900,000 + np liao.. hahahaha~ >=D this proved tat if i dun wan to spend money.. shi ke yi di!! heh heh heh~!! lolz~ =) saw a lot of things tat i wanna buy for my pets but cos i intend to reach tat target before thursday, so have to 'restrain' my fingers sia!! how can a woman not spend money.. especially on the things they like!! lolz~ kidding la.. haha~ well, all the best to my saving plan ba~ have to continue today also. hee~

wang xiao yen, also known as xiao yang or xiao [first tone] yen [names given by our part-time lecturer], nearly chopped me into pieces today.. haha~ cos i kept pulling her pony tail!! lolz~ very fun la.. at least to me. dunno why today quite high [lucky not till LT's standard.. no offense ah~ haha~ =)] den just now, the 'supposed' very handsome physco teacher, mr. ong.. is not handsome at all lor!! hui ying and shu hong cheated us~!! ah~~ waste my time nia.. i mean waste my time to keep on wondering how 'handsome' he is.. haha~ the best part is his teaching style.. so boring lor~!!!! he speak so soft, sit on he table somemore~! den can tell tat quite a lot of my friends dun reall like him.. sigh~ first impression of his is 'mati' liao~

lolz~ just remember something tat happen during my attachment. tat time, i supposed to give oral gargle to my clients. den there happen to have one malay client who only understands malay and [maybe] a little bit of english. she told me some stuff tat i dun understand, but just when i was going to get help, she said 'como' [sounds like tat la]. the best part is i heard 'commode' [a chair with wheels and a hole in the centre, usually for use in toilet]. so i brought her to the toilet, when suddenly, she said something in malay again. den i called my malay friend for help. here comes the funny part, she told me tat my client wanted to rinse her mouth, not to go to the toilet!! ah~~ lolz~

very funny sia~ think i'll neva forget this part of my attachment.. now den i know the importance of communication. lucky now is only a small, harmless mistake. can't imagaine if i did something terrible cos of communication error.. have to learn malay liao.. T_T

my head..

2005-02-01T17:20:00.000+08:00

1st february : my head pain~ ah~~ somemore today end class at 8pm. sigh~

dun know wat i really wan in life sia.. anything tat i'm blessed with, i'm not happy or should i say, not appreciating them.. =P dun like tat feeling, but at the same time, i can't do anything to change it.. sigh~ how i hope tat God cn take me to heaven soon.. =P aiya.. i know i know.. cannot ask for these ask if things de.. but i'm very sick, very tired, very irritated, very disgusted by life. too bad can't end it.. sigh~

very very de cold..

2005-01-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

11th january : today did nothing much. at first wanted to go donate blood de.. but cos mens, so cannot.. sigh.. feel like trying tomo.. ahaha~ =D anyway.. i really find myself as someone who like to brag sia.. recently watever things i drew, i always show them to my friends.. think some are irritated by me [cos they gave me sacarstic remarks =(] sigh sigh.. christain somemore.. =P hope i will change to be a more humble person in a few months time..

ok.. i'm not feeling good [refering to happy la..] these few days.. those who followed my entries should know ba.. sigh~ mayb cos of him.. not replying my msg-cum-sms.. so disappointed by him now.. well.. i dun wan to think of this, but i feared tat he's not the one.. sigh~!! how can i be so idiotic sia.. why i kept on suspecting God's descision for me.. =P forgive me Lord..

hope tomo will be a betta day..

haha~

2005-01-10T16:47:00.000+08:00

10th january : ahaha~ i'm back again.. cos thinking tat the previous msg was rather sad.. so i write again to say tat i'm not tat sad now.. haha~ =) very funny cos my friend, jolyn, who's now sitting beside me and dun seems to have noticed tat i'm writing about her.. anyway, she came and sat beside me and made lots of weird sounds.. den the best part was tat i didn't even notice tat it's her!! haha~ i was just thinking tat the person beside me is either mad or siao.. lolz~ same meaning ah.. now den notice.. haha~ but who knows suddnely she call me.. lolz~ den i was so shocked.. haha~ =D thanks God for bringing her to me today.. ahaha~ =)

think she's undergoing lots of stress ba.. co her face like quite packed with pimples.. haah~ dun kill me when you read this hor.. lolz~ =P may God bless you!!

freezing~~~ _!!!

2005-01-10T15:20:00.000+08:00

10th january : wa.. today got 5 hours break sia.. siao bo~ haha.. =) well.. i just joined a connecting stuff, something like friendster + bogspot, which was much worse than hi5.. lolz~ not to be mean.. =P in multiply [tat's the name of it la btw], you can write your own journals, give your friends a testimonial, add other contacts to your list of friends, write recipes [which i, personally, find it useless la..], put up pictures [this is the one tat attracts me.. only!! lolz~], record recent events, got calender.. blah~ still know very little of it cos i only go there update a little bit of stuff den log out liao.. hahaa~ =)

anyway.. sigh~ he didn't reply me sia!! so sad.. guess guys can't be trusted ba.. sigh sigh sigh!!! =( very sad.. hope he's ok. but still feel very sad (>T_T<) God.. please bless him ba.. thanks..

ok.. back to subject. today so cold~ maybe cos i was in the air-conditioned room for like.. the past 3 hours? hmm.. i was wondering how come my fats not keeping me warm huh.. guess they lost their function as 'fats' liao.. haha~ siao liao.. also dun know wat i saying.. maybe cos too cold.. and depressed ba.. oh ya.. i quarrelled with my sec sch classmate sia.. first time.. haha~ =P i dun know whether my fault not.. but i feel quite bad la [when i didn't see her.. haha~] when i see her, she gives me a black face.. sigh~ friend.. why can't we just forgive each other huh.. sigh..

hope everything will turn on well for me.. =P can't smile all of a sudden.. sigh.. =( oh ya.. i forgot to bring my handphone today. felt quite uneasy at first.. hmm.. mati liao.. next time if handphone is banned from school, how am i goingin to survive? =S

=(

2005-01-07T13:46:00.000+08:00

7th january : i'm suffering from cramps sia.. sigh.. think it's the second time in my life.. dunno wat's happening with my womb.. sigh~ >=( anyway, today did nothing much. just had macnuggets and a regular coke for lunch. den at the same time, i did my project, which lasted for 45 min, with my groupmates. the stupid law module.. dun know who brought it up the the director.. =P

sigh~ dun know why.. today felt very sleepy.. my eyes look sleepy too. so maloo!! =P think everyone also can tell tat i dun feel quite well today.. sigh.. hope today can go home earlier.. sigh, sigh, sigh~

it's a happy day~

2005-01-06T13:34:00.000+08:00

6th january : today it's matthew's birthday~ happy birthday matt!! may you find someone who like you and you will like back!! =) anyway, i felt so full [just eaten chicken noodle + 2 cans of soda drinks =P]!! can't believe tat i've eaten so much sia.. haha~ guess wat? my diet plan has failed, once again. lolz~ =D it neva work sia!! i got no patience and no determination de.. how to slim down at this rate? someone help me?! [seems like only God can help me to build up my determination.. hee~ kidding!! ^^]

by the way, today received another sms from him [refer to last entry].. hee~ very happy!! very long time neva receive his sms.. actually the last time i received it was 2 or 3 days ago.. haha~ =) well, i guessed if this continue like this, i might even go over to his country.. lolz~ but first, i will physco him to come over.. haha~ =D anyway, think i like more everyday.. hee~ die sia.. like kinda mad about him recently.. dun know wat qian bin will say after she read this part.. hahaha~

well, well.. forgot to describe today. today is a great day, with big sun [hope it won't rain later.. O_o], blue sky, cool breeze [alamek.. just notice the wind speed.. like kinda fast.. hmm.. think will rain ba.. hahaha~].. today also went to the suborinate court to listen to 2 hearings. school siao one le.. go there listen, den need to write report about it.. sigh~ nothing betta to do like tat.. >=S wasted 3 hours over there.. listen also dun really understood wat the witnesses said [i only undersatd wat's going on when the judge summarised wat's going on here.. haha~] think the worst part was when we wanna leave the place. 2 minutes before we left, the police stood at the door. den i heard joanne said, 'alamak, the police blocking the door! he dun wan us to leave!!' lolz~ those who heard her said this, laughed. =D haaha~ kinda funny.. hee~

ok!! stop here liao.. need to go for lecture. ending school at 3 pm today. may God bless today with a good ending~!! =D may God also bless everyone tat i've known, to enjoy their school, work and attachment!! haaha~ and bless him too, with safety, even while walking.. hee ^^ amen! =)

hiya~ =)

2005-01-03T14:46:00.000+08:00

3rd january : yesterday i read the msg sent by him.. lolz~ couldn't sleep for the nite sia!! haha~ he actually said something mushy.. so unlike him.. lolz~ [cos i always thought him as someone who is very conservative de.. hee~ >=)] anyway.. nothing much happened yesterday. i played neopets for the whole day, [mirically, no one wanna snatch the computer from me.. haha~ first time!! =D], den eat quite a lot of food [mother's cooking is getting more and more oily liao.. need to educate her about healthy eating already.. hee~ kidding~ ^^].

as for today, it's the beginning of the school term. had to wake up at 7:30 am sia.. den somemore today still got rain.. the formula: sleepiness + cool weather = sleep. haha~ today end at 7:00 pm somemore!! sigh~ thinking of taking a taxi later.. hee~ >=D anyway, not a bad start for school. hope i'll enjoy today.. may God bless me!! =)

guess wat? when i told my friends tat i had a.. *cough*, they dun seems very shocked sia.. like kind of expected. hmm.. not much fun sia.. hahaha~ =D hope he's really the one for me.. God, please make him my soulmate!! lolz~ so straight forward.. i must say, Lord, please make things go on well between us.. hee~ tat's more like it. haha~ =D

may today be a safe day for those tat i knew, and for those out there, fighting for survival, Lord, please grant them the will.. not to give up! Father Lord, please have mercy on them.. please Lord..

lolz~ i'm back!!

2004-12-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

17th december : haha~ it's been so long since the last time i updated my blog.. been pretty busy with exam in november, den after that holiday for 4 weeks, and now, i'm serving my 'sentence' [which is better-known as 'attachment'] in kkh.. lolz~ well-- here i go to write the newest happenings in my life!! =)

--> i, finally, has a boyfriend [on-line]!! haha~ he's a malaysian, and i didn't see him in person before.. lolz~ pretty lame la, cos after a few months of chatting in friendster, we became couple. haha~ but i dun know should i consider him as a bf or not.. sigh~ tat's something which is troubling me.. seems like he's going overseas to work. now i'm praying to God tat he'll come over to singapore. hahaha~ evil evil me.. lolz~ =)

--> attachment in kkh drains out my energy sia.. not to say tat i dun like the environment, nor the staff. i find it tiring cos i had diffculty in getting to sleep!! wat can be worse than tat?! considering tat i need to stand for 7 hours, brisk walking and sometimes jogging included. den after a hard day's work, i can't get the rest tat i need.. sigh~ dun know why le?

--> christmas day is approaching. i haven't make cards for my friends yet, except violet. haha~ pretty stressed sia!! need to think of the design and the material needed.. =S may God bless me with the energy to make some cards today ba [cos i going out with some of them tomorrow]!! lolz~ very last minute work.. =P

--> recently neva contact jolyn.. dun know how is she.. sigh~ hope everything goes on well for her.. jolyn, if you happen to read this, may you enjoy your remaining 2 weeks of holidays.. lolz~ may God bless you with good health, and kavi, catherine, usha, angelina too [we are the f 9 graders for a maths during sec 3+4, lolz]!! =)

--> adeline's birthday passed a few days ago.. happy birthday again, my dearest friend!! =) God bless you in everything you do!! haha~

--> opps.. think i get onto matthew's nerves recently.. cos he tried to call me a few times, but i happened to off my handphone at tat moment. and he sent sms like: why always i call you and you didn't on your phone one? haiz..
sigh~ like i wanted tat to happen like tat. who knows tat he'll call tat 10+ pm, especially when i need to wake up at 4:15am the next day? okok.. i know it's partly my fault to say him till like tat.. but he always call, or should i say contact me only when he needed help? well~ i'm pretty disappointed with him.. pretty.. sigh..

rainy day + heavy air-corn = freezing~ >=(

2004-10-18T13:33:00.000+08:00

18th october : today woke up at 0130 this morning, keep on having 'break-up sleep' [waking up every 5 minutes!! =(], all the way till 0900.. sigh~ dun know why like that le.. maybe cos yesterday had a heavy dinner [i ate 3-4 slices of large pizza and 1 piece of garlic bread.. lolz..] ba.. aiyo~

anyway, now having break, for the next 5 hours le!! humph.. must go complain to the module coordinator liao.. nah~ just kidding la~ haha.. i so kind one.. won't complain.. lolz.. >=D well~ did nothing much so far. i had my breakfast at home-- majo 10 mee [with 420 calories.. lolz], 2 bottles of yakult, 2 slices of pear.. wa~ eat so much sia!! by the way, i'm on diet now.. people who know me hor [esp. jolyn], please kindly dun tempt me with those delicious food.. thanks a lot ah.. =D

ok.. let's see.. yesterday spent nearly the whole day on computer [namely friendster again]. i wrote some testimonials for my friends again.. den up-dated some photos.. lolz.. got my ideal bf sia~ hahaha.. =D can go see see.. hee~ but rather disappointed, cos liam liam didn't send me a msg.. sigh~ [!!!] dun tell me i really like him ah?? ~O_o~ lolz.. come to think of it, it's quite a miracle how we met.. i still remember we met in the secret frog swamp of fairyland.. haha.. both of us were looking for white tiger skin, and i think he found it first.. den i was disappointed, but he stayed with me to find it. or is it the other way round? i found it first, den i stayed with him to look for it.. lolz.. senile liao la~!! my dendrites are decreasing liao~!! ah~~ but in the end, both of us found it. hahaha.. and we completed the quest together.. hee~ so nice.. =)

hey.. when did my blog sounds more and more like my love life sia? hahaha.. anyway, i'm having pyschology exam this thursday. studied laio.. but dun know got remember or not. hahahaah~ =D ok la.. got to go liao~ need to think of other things to do.. hahaah..

Father Lord, please bless everyone who is important to me. protect them from all evil and any accidents tat will cause harm to them. Father God, please continue to guide me.. please place Your hand on me, lead me away from any forms of temptation and the evil one.. Father.. please have mercy unto me. forgive me for anything that i have done to hurt anyone, and even You.. may i pray fro all these things in Jesus' name. Amen.

aiyoyo~ =P

2004-10-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

17th october : today gonna study my physco.. sianz ah!!! >=( i dun wanna touch it le~ aiyo~ but anyway.. 3 weeks later.. i'll be happier.. cos end exam.. haha~ but the thought of studying now hor.. sigh~!!!!

today wrote some testimonials for my friends.. haha~ so long neva see them liao.. dun know whether they are fine or not.. dunno why.. nowadays keep on going to friendster. maybe cos class bbq coming ba~ need to remember how they look like.. lolz..

guess wat? even my father also worried about me.. yesterday, he came to my room.. just to ask me : you got any boyfriend not? hahahah.. i nearly fall down from my bed sia~! lolz.. i really so pathetic meh??!! sigh~ Father Lord.. please help me!!! >=S

splendid day!! =D

2004-10-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

16th october : well~ i finished my new book [the da vinci code] at last!! haha.. so happy.. took me quite some time to finish it [around 1 week??] haha~ so now can focus on studies liao.. =) anyway, found my long lost friend's blog. really must thank God!! i have been looking for it for quite some time.. ahahaha~ anyway, today did nothing much except browsing around friendster for like, 3 hours? den did my project slides.. no speech yet~ and now writing this blog.. hahaha~

by the way.. yesterday's singapore idol.. jerry was out at last!! but dunno why.. i can't smile after they showed the video on him.. so sad sia.. come to think of it.. actually i really like the first song he sang, the leader of the band, i thinked.. sigh~ hope out of the competition, he'll be fine!! God bless and be with ya, jerry!! =)

today got lose my temper when i was locked out of my house.. while i went to find my siblings for the key, i was feeling ironic.. my family have 7 members.. but no one to open the door for me..

sigh.. anyway.. today is a great day spent!! =D thanks Lord!!

happiness.. treasure it or lose it..

2004-10-15T09:44:00.000+08:00

15th october : today i had my breakfast with 2 of my china classmates. dunno why.. all of a sudden, we are talking of our family. one of my friend shared that the first time she left china, her mother and elder sis cried.. den the funniest thing is that when they are younger, she and her sis alway quarrel over even minor things.. haha =D [like my family sia] anyway, she said that nowadays when she returns to china, her sis will always go to the airport to fetch her.. and when she leaves, her sis will send her all the way to the airport.. so nice sia~ =) the best part is that they didn't quarrel at all during her stay in china..

it's interesting how our relationship with people are.. one minute foe, another minute friend. hahaha~ =D come to think of it, if only we are able to 'ren' (bear) that moment before we explode or voice out our displeasure with that person, we might be good friends with a lot of people.. hahaha..

anyway, i think i was the on who brought up the topic of family during our meal.. cos today i quarreled with my mother over a lost skirt. haha.. now come to think of it, it was really stupid.. well~ Father Lord.. please give the strenght to treasure my family and the bond with anyone..

-nothing-

2004-10-14T14:48:00.000+08:00

14th october : today ending school at 6 pm!! hahaha.. thank God sia~ supposed to end at 7pm one.. but the bio teacher let us off.. hee~ =D anyway, today i was called out to do some demostration on bottle feeding. Joanne 'sabo' me!! she called me out. luckily i got listen in her talk.. so everything went on smoothly.. haha.. but i felt quite 'forced' to do the demostration.. cos she like already wanted to call my name at the frist place.. sigh~ anyway, hope today end fast and well!! =D

lol.. no mood to write la.. joyn if you happen to see this.. sorry!! =P

weird day..

2004-10-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

13th october : is it me or wat?? i'm been feeling very cold for the past three days [only in the morning] sigh~ an feeling very very de hot at nite!! >=( hmm.. weird..

anyway, today came to sch with kavi. half way down the road, we ran out of topic. hahaha~ if jolyn was here, i think the three of us will be staring at each other and laughed.. too bad~ hope she's having fun there.. =) God.. please be with her, stay with her as always..

dunno why.. i'm looking forward to receiving sms from V-san and keen to get msg from liam liam.. wat a flirt i am!! ah~ i dun like it this way!! God please help me!! pease only bring -one- soulmate to me.. the perfect one who suits me well.. hahha.. =P anyway.. nothing much to wrie today.. so that's all ba.. hahaha..

Lord Father, please continue to guide me.. please help me with every words that i'll be using. please let me use word that are truthful and Lord, please help me not to cause any pain onto anyone by my language.. thanks Lord!! may i pray for all these things in Jesus' name.. Amen!! =D

sigh..

2004-10-12T13:26:00.000+08:00

12th october : sigh~ got three guys at the back of me now.. irritating.. haha.. if they can see me typing this even better.. hee~ anyway, nothing much happen today.. just had my lunch.. very bloated.. heh.. well.. miss liam sia.. doubt anyone know who i'm talking about.. even violet and foong cui dun know about him.. hahaha..

wa liao..

2004-10-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

11th october : i strongly think that i canot take cold.. i was in this air-corn room for the past 3 hours.. and i'm freezing~!! haha.. just noticed that my language used for the title isn't very nice.. my apology~ =P anyway, today did nothing much.. woke up at 8 something, read a little on the new book that i had bought [the da vinci code -- got forced by violet to buy it.. haha], bathed, find my clothes to go poly with [disaster sia.. dunno why most of my clothes disappeared.. so wear a t-shirt, jeans and sandals out.. very causal.. haha =D], go sch, reached sch in 1 hour's time.. den bio lecture, break for 5 hours.. [which is still now.. haha..] den later got clinical lab till 8 pm.. sigh~ and guess what?? i forgot to eat breakfast.. and dun feel like eating lunch now [cos no one to company.. =(].. but i'm not hungry.. haha.. V^_^] *victory sign* maybe will slim down a little ba?? haha.. for the time being only..

well well~ just read the lastest update of naruto.. haha.. sasuke won!! i knew it!! i always believe that he's stronger than naruto!! =D but sad part is that he had to leave his village cos he nearly killed naruto. i like the ending when sasuke walked into the darkness and disappeared, naruto, on the other hand, was waken up by the sunlight.. isn't this contrast interesting? haha.. and i always got a feeling that if sasuke stick with naruto, he'll neva 'grow up' or should i say that he'll neva become stronger. the reason is simple.. cos naruto seems to have all the luck in this world!! so unfair.. but he's the main character.. so i can't say anything much~ sigh~

from this comic.. i learnt that sometime one need to be independent to be more mature.. or can grow up faster ba.. if i'm left alone for the next 10 years of my life, i believe that i'll be able to perform tasks [such as self-care] better, but will be less sociable ba.. sigh~ to be independent or not to be? that is the question.. hahaa..

long time no write liao.. haha~

2004-10-11T14:16:00.000+08:00

11th october : i had been having attachment for the past 2 weeks.. aww~ my feet hurt after that.. but now feeling better cos can wear a more comfortable pair of shoes.. haha.. anyway, i had quite a lot of fun during attachment. i knew a few new friends and built a better rapport with the old ones.. but one sad thing is that, my friend -- jolyn, will be out for attachment for the next 2 weeks.. sigh~ couldn't see her for 1 whole month sia~ =( but anyway, hope you have fun in your ward, jolyn!! can call me if you're free.. haha.. take care and God bless you!! =D

oh ya!! david yeo is out of singapore idol!! ah!! how can that be??!! i so shocked to hear that news.. and thought that my sis was playing a trick on me [my work ended at 9pm that day].. so sad~!! sigh~ if i knew.. i would have voted more on david than sly.. sigh sigh sigh~ but david is a good singer.. one of the best singers i had ever heard of.. sigh~ maybe that night was not his night.. i saw the recap.. his section was yucky!! he was singing some 'no,no.no' thingy.. think he chose the wrong song ba.. aiyo~!!!

anyway.. may God bless them.. esp. those who are out liao.. keep them cheered up and please Father.. may this competition be fair. let those with real talents stay and those who dun, leave.. lolz.. i like very bad le.. anyway.. Lord, please continue to guide them and keep them safe from all accidents. Amen.

wa~ so cold!!

2004-09-24T10:25:00.000+08:00

24th september : today i so cold~ haha.. title like kind of exaggerating.. hee~ anyway, except monday, i came to school with kavi and jolyn for the whole week.. we alway talk and laugh.. a little hack care about what the rest of the passengers are thinking.. hee~ but i enjoyed every moment with them.. they alway take my worries and sorrows away from me~ hahaha.. i must thank you God, for bring them into my life :D it's always nice to have someone to talk to whenever you go to school [cos the journey is around an hour]. jolyn is always the one who started to sing. though i was a little uncomfortable, i accompanied her to sing.. and kavi? haha.. i think he's a little affected by us [esp. jolyn] cos sometimes he will sing with us. hahaha :D may God bless them!!

monday i went to school with someone. though we got talk, i felt a little weird.. like suddenly we two cannot communicate liao. maybe it's because of me.. recently, whatever thing she does, i will be a little 'buoy song' :P den we had so many quarrels and 2 nearly ended our friendship. i told her i dun like her 2 times liao and she asked me why i dun like her.. but i dun know wat to say cos dun like means dun like! :P haha.. like kind of selfish yea~ anyway, i think i dun like her cos the whole world like only notice her.. she's like the center of everything and me, as her 'friend', was only known as 'her friend'. i'm not jealous [i think] but a little cross cos she like kinda arrogant and starting to take friends for granted [cos whenever her friends are in trouble, she'll complain to me that it's none of her business, why must she be involved..] sigh~ maybe i'm backstabbing her now, saying bad things about her..

Father Lord, please help me.. i think the evil one is trying to take control of me. i dun wan to lose to him Father, so Lord, please give me the strength and wisdom to be able to make the right decisions and strengthen my faith for You, Father.. i'm scared that one day, me and that someone will not be friends anymore.. i mean Lord, i like our friendship in the begining, when i dun really know her that well.. preharps Lord, she had trusted the wrong person by telling and showing me her displeasure about the people around her.. Father, i know that i did showed mine too.. so Lord, please give me the strength to be able to accept her as who she is. Lord, please help me solve all the ties between us.. may i prayed for all these things in Jesus' name. Amen.

unlucky?

2004-09-23T11:35:00.000+08:00

23rd september : i went to sch with my new bag for the past 2 days.. and guess wat? first day i got myself cut [while playing a trick on my friend.. :P my fault.. hahaha] and today i thought i lost my handphone when my friend found it on the floor.. haha.. lame la.. anyway, i felt a little uncomfortable carrying this new bag.. i bought it in some old shop where it's quite dark and rather creepy.. an old lady with wrinkled face and long chin introduced me to buy it.. so i bought it.. preharps it's a cursed bag?

nah~ kidding :D haha.. i bought it in queentown shopping mall. it's a converse backpack. quite nice looking and very cool too! but when i put it on, i felt uneasy cos i very long time neva carry a backpack.. hee~ anyway, it's lucky that i found my handphone on the floor and lucky that i didn't manage to play that trick on my friend cos that might shaken my friendship and trust with her.. hahaha..

also today, i felt a little lonely though i was surrounded with friends from morning till now. maybe it's because i wanna find someone to talk to.. someone who i can share my problems with.. someone i can trust that he/she will not laugh at my 'problem'.. sigh~ i had been putting up a smile since morning.. in fact since the begining of this semester.. i'm quite tired and sick of this, cos when one day i dun feel like smiling, none of my friends dared to come near me and ask me how am i.. sigh~ so sad.. preharps i really dun have a true friend yet ba..

Father Lord.. please give me the strength that i need to be able to overcome the periods of time when i'm depressed, feel like giving up and times when i think there's no future. Father.. may i pray for the rest that i need.. physically and mentally. i know that Lord.. i need to bring joy to the people around me.. not sorrows.. not anger.. so Lord.. please refill me with the energy that i need to show them that i'm blessed by You. Amen.

-aH*XuN_de`WoRLd*~

bloody NC AZIAH

hell-o.

not a day..

okok

loonng timme nnooo seee!!

heh

the damned day

ouch..

life..

depressed..

hahaha..

heheh

aiyayayaya~

short haire

...

bloody valentine..

lolz

rainy day

this is maddness

aiyozzz~~

hihiz

happy new year!

sicko~

happy new year..?

again?!

will he always be in my heart?

i've watched it. do you?

another day..

it's over..

how i wish..

sigh =3

tiring..

stressed??

He did it again!

pRoJEcT maDdnEsS

so cold.. T_T

holidayz!! =)

*yawn* ..sleepy.. *yawn*

the tenth..

time still goes on.. and on.. and on..

so sianz..

wat a day!

yellow~

first week in school

nothing to do..

first day in school..

holiday coming to an end ^^

long time no see ^^

this is getting interesting..

rushing enteries

a day out.. at long last!

thank you Lord

attachment starts tomo!!

a day in school

study day..

study time!!

last post

felt betta now..

TODAY SUX.. SUX.. SUX.. SUX..SUX..SUX!!!!

so cold!! again.. and again~

a day to remember..

-nothing-much-to-say-

a day of boredom..

lousy day..

wa~ pass my test le!! ^^

presentation for ee nor..

paging for ee nor! i repeat, paging for ee nor..!!

exam finished le!!

exam today!!

cold again..

sigh..

happy day? hmmm..

nothing-in-particular

a day to remember..

hehe~

tomo is the day~!!!

yea~!!!!`

new year is approaching..

my head..

-aHXuN_de`WoRLd~

yawn ..sleepy.. yawn

freezing~~~ _!!!